Right now I’m so disillusioned with life.
My youngest DD has been diagnosed with ADHD and high anxiety. She spends most of her time in her room. She’s looking for work but found nothing suitable. I’m not entirely sure she will. She’s not particularly outgoing and prefers her own company anyway. If the mood takes her, she talks to her dad. If we chat, it can go the wrong way and we fall out. We’ve little in common as is.
The eldest lives away and I don’t feel close to him at all.
My parents are elderly and have their own worries health wise so I try not to burden them with mine. My job is ok but the Manager dislikes me and that causes me anxiety. I have few friends and whilst I’m married, hubby tells me not to worry when I talk about how I feel.
Inside I’m dying, I feel so different from anyone else who have nice families and are close to one another. I’m always alone apart from when I go out with hubby. I enjoy shopping, chatting, coffee, all things my daughter hates....so I do them alone.
I often cry through the stress of it all. I’m so lonely, I’m worried about my daughter, what she’ll do in the future, everything...
I’m sat upstairs now and I don’t feel I’ve even got a family...hubby downstairs, daughter in the front room (has been ALL day, I’m here alone.
Where do I move on from here, I don’t feel good at all right now...
