Not at all, don't give up. So I would get a mirror first and secure it upright over the backing wallpaper, with perhaps a surrounding of silver or gold paper. Then you could place a simple white candle in the centre with some greenery round it, plus a sprig or spray of red berries ( you could get a sprig of mistletoe later to change over from the red berries. If they shrivel. ) Then lay your browner bits along but again feed some small white , but warm lights along the front of the display. Switch on lights. And enjoy the double vision provided by your mirror. Be crafty and get a couple of cotton wool buds, then either mix a little cinnamon and nutmeg and maybe a touch og ginger
with tiny amount of hot water and dip cotton bud into it, and hide at the back alternatively , put a few drops of essential oil you like. Lavender would be restful and you have a lovely thing to enjoy with reminders of the past. Sit back and close your eyes. And perhaps play some music that takes you back to childhood , and remember loved ones.
Don't beat yourself up. Make this a link with your earlier life and try to remember the good times.
