My Dear husband of 44 yrs took his own life 20 months ago.
It came totally out of the blue, and even now I am still in shock, as he left a note saying his disability was getting worse and he did not want to be a burden.
He was my sole mate, and even tho I have a great family and friends each day is a struggle.
My dear brother dropped dead age 28 of a rare heart defect 34 years ago, I had just completed a bereavement course ( i was a carer )
I recognise all the feelings from the posts I have read.
Yes people mean well but unless they too have experienced the same they do not understand.
My advice is take ALL and ANY help that comes your way ( in my case I contacted SOBS-survivors of suicide ) as well as cruse etc.
I keep busy, and have taken on volunteer work.( you can draw strength from people in the same boat or even worse than you. ( we all need a reason to get out of bed in the morning )
Nothing will ever be the same, but life goes on.
I even felt guilty the first time I laughed.
You just have to think how lucky you are to have had them in your life and try to remember the good times.
I met people all the time that have nothing and no one.
It makes me think...is it better to have loved and lost or not loved at all.
Good luck to us all.
remember you are not alone, and life was never fair.
