Nearly 18 months Gone to pieces

it will become easier to live with ,but you'll likely get unexpected moments when it floors you for a long time to come,thats just how grief is,I hope this new year brings you some peace and a bit of happiness xx

So sorry to hear it's so tough for you Linda. You were together a long time, it's no wonder you miss him such a lot. Sadness is a funny thing, it creeps up on you when you don't expect it and then just knocks you sideways. Sometimes it's a memory that triggers it, other times no obvious reason. Try not to give yourself a hard time, it's still really early days and what you're describing is a "normal" response to the loss of someone you really loved. It must have been hard to watch your husband deteriorate like that. Keep posting if it helps you to feel less alone with it all. There is a gransnet forum dedicated to bereavement, you might find it helpful to have look at what others have experienced
Thinking of you

You're welcome
I lost my mum on Dec 6th - totally different, I know. I can't imagine how it must feel to lose your dear hubby.

You're still grieving GaL. It's ok to cry, you are dealing with a painful situation and sometimes crying relieves stress.

I hope you have good friends for support and interests outside your home.

Wishing you comfort and brighter days.

Linda - so sorry to hear that. You know the saying 'grief is the price we pay for love'? It's so true, isn't it? Just keep going, get out and about as much as you can, see your friends, accept all invitations. If you don't already have a pet you might think about getting one. I believe a cat or a dog can be a great comfort. You can always come on here and talk to us, there are lots in a similar situation.

Thank you Ana

Eighteen months isn't long at all compared to forty or so years. Christmas and NY is an emotional time. You are bound to have bad days. Hope you feel brighter tomorrow.xx

Thank you. Think I shall go to bed now. Will look in tomorrow. Gone to bits.

Oh, GreatauntieLinda I feel your pain.

It's nearly 2 and a half years since my DH died and I think the first year is so taken up with sorting out practicalities, paperwork etc. that the reality doesn't sink in for a while.

I honestly can't say that it will get better, because I don't know, but there are quite a few on here who will sympathise

You are coping well.This blip is just a sign of how much you loved him and the happy memories you have. Sadness is a very positive emotion.Go along with it and dont try to supress it. Thinking of you.

Thank you.

Awww, Linda, its still early days, and I'm sure most who've experienced such a great loss would be the same.
I haven't got anything to say which will help your pain, but just know that its natural that grief will well up at times.
I'm so sorry for your loss x