? Annie, sorry you are having an awful time at the moment, you are overthinking and analysing your situation. All your problems are crowding in on you. You have faith, you must trust that all will be well. We cannot through worry, alter everything, life is not like that. Your Golden Wedding Anniversary, will pass like any other day. When you die, your sole is ageless, the love you felt is to, it will be the reuniting of two living soles, regardless so any arguments that all young people have, with age comes more tolerance, do get kind to yourself as you would others. The problems of old age come at the expense if a long life, everything comes at a cost I'm afraid. You have lots of people that care, why don't you write to your sisters one last time, don't expect an answer, just tell them you care and miss them.