My beloved child

Sorry, and i have decided she is to be interred with her beloved father , this is the last thing I can do for her, except love her as I have done since she was born.

Oh Annie you write so movingly. Your love for your girl shines through. I feel privileged that you are able to share your love and grief with us. I wish you strength over the next difficult weeks. Please remember that our love is with you

You will have many friends with you in the cathedral and many more of us virtual friends thinking of you and wishing you well Anniebach

Annie, I think and hope that your beloved daughter's funeral will be very comforting for you.
I too, wish you strength to deal with this awful sorrow xx

I hope that all the happy memories of your daughter will mean more and more to you as times passes than the anguish that you're experiencing now. She sounds like an amazing person that countless people were blessed to know.

Annie you must be so proud to know that your beautiful girl touched the hearts of so many.

Her funeral sounds very befitting for a lady who undoubtedly played an important part in her community.

Please draw some comfort in the knowledge that your dear husband is still remembered by his colleagues and in the town where he served.

Father and Daughter reunited for eternity.?

It's so lovely that your daughter will be honoured in such a wonderful way. No matter what the last years have been for her (and you) she has obviously touched a lot of people's lives in such a positive way. I hope you take comfort from the strength of those around you at the funeral and that she will be laid to rest with her beloved father. You will need much support in the following months - we are all here for you but I hope you are also going to receive it from your family too. x

Dear Annie, thinking of you.

Thanks for letting us know about the funeral and interment Annie, we'll all be with you as you continue to be your daughters loving and devoted mum at this time. It's moving to read about the Cathedral, the police involvement and the recognition that your daughter lived such a positive life before illness overcame her.
You'll be keeping going on love, will power and adrenaline. I hope you're managing to rest a little. Sending love x

Annie, as someone who has lost my darling son to suicide on 31st May, I know the unbelievable pain and numbness you are feeling. The heartache is almost too hard to bear, my thoughts are with you at this most dreadful time xx

It will be a fine tribute to your daughter’s life Annie and will give you and the family a measure of comfort.

Joelsnan and Phoenix and any other parent who suffers such a devastating loss such as this, will know exactly what Anniebach is going through.
The rest of us can only imagine.

What a wonderful tribute to your daughter’s life Anniebach it will give you all wonderful memories, memories of a daughter/mum/wife/colleague to cherish and be proud of. No more or less than she deserves.
I hope it will be an uplifting occasion as you celebrate her life while still mourning her loss in your hearts.

I hope her children will realise what a loved and respected person she was .

Joelsnan, it's a pain which is impossible to express fully isn't it ? I have heard from other mothers whose children took their lives , there is such kindness here

They will know that Annie, and they will also so know it is a terrible illness that took her from you all. Love to you and all your family.

Annie the Cathedral service is such a beautiful statement of love from all who knew your beloved firstborn and an appropriate expression of 'family' continuity from her father's colleagues, past and present. I'm sure you will feel comforted by interring your daughter with your dear husband and I pray that all who are mourning her loss will feel enveloped in the arms of the love that is being sent from everyone

Dear Annie I am just catching up after a few days away.

So very sorry for you and your family, but so glad you have posted here and that you have been met with such loving support (of course!)

Just wanted to add a wee bit more to the love and prayers surrounding you xxx.

Anniebach I'm posting again, just to let you know that I'm still thinking of you.

Our experiences are the same, in that we have lost a child by their own hand, (as it is often phrased) however my son was not a parent, so I have no idea of how you deal with the grief, loss and possible confused emotions of others directly affected.

I'm at a loss as to what to say, but sending love, compassion and every good wish to you all, of course there is bugger all I can do, but feel free to pm me.

Oh Annie, I have only just come across this, it has all been said, and very beautifully, by others, and it sounds as though you are handling it all with with calm and dignity. You are in my prayers, God bless you and all the family and may her dear soul now rest in peace, purified and free from pain and sorrow.

Annie, I am not able to post often but I wanted to send my love and sincere condolences Rose x

Morning Annie, how are you today?

What an honour the cathedral funeral is - you must be proud of her and the positive influence she was on her community. x

Sending love xx

Good morning x

Tired, so much to arrange. Just had meeting with undertaker , I want my child brought to the Chapel of Rest as soon as possible. Three services to arrange, cathedral, crematorium-her wish- then interment . Thank heaven several priests want to take part.

Her husband is in a very distressed state, he has waited seven years in the hope she would be healed . He wants close family flowers only so I have chosen two local charities for donations. Local Mind Branch, they have started a support section for young people covering depression, eating disorders, anxiety etc. And some years ago my daughter started a dog rescue and rehoming scheme which was given charity status so these are our choices.

Me? I long to see those beautiful blue eyes and radiant smile but can't and it hurts so much. I have the silly thought she will bounce in and tell me to rest and she will do some of the arrangements . Thinking of the title of Caitlin Thomas's book after the death of Dylan Thomas - Left Over Life To Kill, this sums up how I feel.

Oh Annie, every time I read a brave post from you, I want to cry with you. I just hope that you have someone to cry with, and in time be healed. Blessings go with you today and for all the arrangements that have to be made. Live and hugs.

Love