Glamdram, been where you are now but I never remarried. Our daughters were 5 and 7 when their adored daddy died. I brought them up on my own, found their weddings did bring a longing to share these times with my husband . When our first grandson was born I found it brought back such an ache , I sat in the maternity wing sitting room and waited on my own, as soon as grandson was born my son in law called me into the Labour Ward, such emotions , then my darling daughter eyes filled with tears said I wish Daddy could be here with you to see him. Then we dried our eyes and moved on, it was difficult but you won't be sitting alone and the feelings you experienced will pass, I coped by saying to my husband ' look at our grandson ' not aloud, and I felt I was sharing this wonderful moment with him. It's a new life and your husband lives on.
I send you hugs x