Lucky, I haven’t felt anger, but every other emotion. No marriage is perfect, whatever people say, I think sometimes when people die we feel their loss so much we put them on pedestals. My husband died in the last days of December 2004, I can’t speak of his illness even now, it was brutal, I prefer not to got there.
We were the best of friends and we trusted each other, to me there was no one else like him, but we had our moments, people do, it would be boring if every day was the same. I regret some of the silly things I made a fuss of, that my daughter was so difficult and caused him anguish, if I could have my time back I would do some things differently. The past is just that, it is now and what’ve have learnt that matters, you owe it to yourself to seize the day, not always easy but it does get better. I think of life has a road we are all travelling, fir a long stretch of it I had him and we were happy. If you can think of the good times you had, not those awful times you had with him, that was his responsibility not yours, you handled it at the time the best way you could. Perhaps. Others might have walked but you kept going and held the family together. Be kind to yourself you deserve it.