My dad died in January 2020, we hadn't spoken for years as he was an alcoholic, beyond help and very nasty with drink. Since he died I can't get past it, I don't understand why he chose that life over being a dad to us, I don't know why he drank if something triggered it, I feel angry at him for dying, I am angry that he never made an effort with us, I feel guilty that I never reached out as an adult to try help him. I just don't know how to handle my feelings about his death.
Petition for estranged Grandparents