I think that's absolutely normal. There's no 'one size fits all' when it comes to grief, and sometimes it just creeps up and hits you right between the eyes when you least expect it. If you feel you can't talk to anyone else about it, at least you can come on here and let those feelings out and know others will understand.
Not the same at all but my 'best' friend died in January and I miss her every day. No one to send cryptic messages to, chat to for hours, have tea and cakes with etc etc.
Obviously, there are people but no one who is the whole thing.
Oh I've had counselling, but talking doesnt take away the bare fact that I miss my daughter. Sometimes its liveable, and i can pack it away in a box on my head.
I have never missed anyone the way I miss my brother who died less than six months ago. It feels like a hole in my body that won't be filled. He got on my nerves but we were very close and no one seems to realise I miss him desperately, because he was 'just my brother'. We were almost twins. A few years ago I moved to be nearer my family, so we would go for coffee pretty much on a weekly basis. We went to concerts and shows together, we had a love of similar things.He would ring and ask if I'd like to go for a cuppa, just small things but I could talk to him about things I rarely spoke about to anyone else. I tell myself no one can miss him more than his widow, so I do spend time with her as we get on very well, but it isn't the same as having him there. Thankyou for starting this thread as it helps to express the deep sadness I feel at the loss of my life's companion and my irreplaceable friend. My lovely brother I was so lucky to have beside me all my life.
Do you have a Cruise group near you? or maybe go into a local church and ask to speak to a member of the clergy.. it is such a relief to be able to talk.. I hope you can find someone soon..
MissA sending a big hug ❤️I remember when your daughter died such a difficult time and it never ends does it ? Quite different because they were old but I still miss my mum and Dad so much and it’s 12 years but I can still break down and cry ( like now) when I think of them If we could just have them back for an hour to hold them and love them Take care xx