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Bereavement

Have lost a lifetime friend

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Babs03 Wed 11-Sept-24 21:17:08

Last week a friend I have known nearly all my life died of pancreatic cancer. We lived in the same small mill town in Lancs, attended the same school, though she was older than me so in a different year, but when both young and with small children we lived on the street and became firm friends.
In the 1980s we moved down south looking for jobs but we stayed in contact, seeing each other a couple of times a year, we would stay for a few days with herself and her DH or they would come to stay with us. We wouldn't go more than a few days without texting or whatsapping each other, and we both did wordle and quordle together every morning, she continued to do this almost right to the end of her life.
For years I never confided in her that my eldest daughter was estranged from us but when I finally did she broke down in tears and said that one of her daughters had also become estranged from them. The details were different but the heartbreak was the same. And so we offered each other support and became even closer, she was in fact a rock to me, when I suffered a breakdown she came to see me and simply sat by my side, saying nothing, just holding my hand. Anyway am in tears again. Am trying to support her poor DH who knew her since they were at school, he is now 79 and feels like his own life has now finished, luckily another good friend who lives nearby is popping in with food and to listen if he feels like talking, is just such an awful time.
Anyway just felt like saying this.
Thanks for listening.
x

Happilyretired123 Wed 11-Sept-24 21:22:41

💐 so sorry

halfpint1 Wed 11-Sept-24 21:22:42

I feel for you. I lost my life long friend a couple of years ago, the empty space can be unbearable. So sad for you

crazyH Wed 11-Sept-24 21:44:36

Babs03 - so sorry for your loss. I can imagine how you feel. A couple of years ago, I lost one of the best friends I will ever have. I didn’t know her for long, But it’s as if I’ve known her all my life. She was sweet, non judgemental, kind and generous with her time. She always listened to my non-stop moans about this, that and the other. I still miss her

Nannarose Wed 11-Sept-24 21:45:39

Thinking of you, and being at a distance is so hard.

Doodledog Wed 11-Sept-24 21:47:31

I'm so sorry. Cancer is such a cruel disease.

Please take care of yourself. flowers

Babs03 Wed 11-Sept-24 22:20:50

Thanks for kind words.
Am dreading the funeral but have to be strong for her DH. X

luluaugust Wed 11-Sept-24 22:25:38

Thinking of you Babs special friends are so precious flowers

Allira Wed 11-Sept-24 22:54:27

Babs03 flowers

It's very hard to lose your dearest friend.
One of the best friends I ever had died several years ago, the anniversary is today and I still miss her.

NotSpaghetti Thu 12-Sept-24 00:16:48

Babs can't add anything here but hope the funeral will actually be helpful to you all.
flowers
What a terrible loss.

sharon103 Thu 12-Sept-24 00:44:32

So very sad Babs.
May the special memories of your dear friend live on in your heart forever.
Grief is the price we pay for love. flowers

Redhead56 Thu 12-Sept-24 01:05:36

I was on another thread just recently discussing my best friend who actually had pancreatic cancer. I loved him dearly I know exactly how you feel you are not alone get back to us anytime you feel you need to. You have a support network here and you can rely on it be strong 💐.

Kim19 Thu 12-Sept-24 01:43:45

🌷 SO sad for you. My own besty of 65 years is currently in the valley of the shadow and it's pretty unbearable. Thinking of you with huge compassion. Very glad you shared on here.

nanna8 Thu 12-Sept-24 01:54:33

Sorry Babs03 It is dreadful to lose someone who is part of your life. Good memories, though - they can be comforting ( even though you might cry)

Grandmabatty Thu 12-Sept-24 06:29:52

My condolences Bab. I lost my best friend of 59 years last year and I still think about her most days.

Allsorts Thu 12-Sept-24 07:23:05

Babs sending you a (hug). My best friends died about 7 years ago, she helped me just by being there. We had been through broken marriages, deaths in the family but most of all my husband dying, we had almost daily chats on the phone lovely holidays and nights out etc, I’ve made new friends but nothing compares. You can be there for her husband, after all these years you're the two people that know how great she was and he will need your support.It’s horrible losing those you love and in time you will think just of the good times although the gap they leave never closes but you live with it.
I too am estranged from my daughter, only those whom it's happened to know its a living bereavement.

M0nica Thu 12-Sept-24 07:30:41

I lost my dearest friend quite suddenly 2 years ago. Ours was not a lifelong friendship, we had only known each other 45 years.

But there are so many of us holding out our arms to you, Babs03. It does not need words, it is the solidarity of those who share the same grief.

Horatia Thu 12-Sept-24 07:38:04

So very sorry.

Babs03 Thu 12-Sept-24 07:47:33

The funeral is Friday next week. We will travel up Thursday and stay with our other good friend. Planning to travel back Saturday but will stay over till Sunday if our other friend and DH want us to. Have been asked to send any old photos I have of when we were younger. Will take a pic on my phone and send them over. So am sure there will be more tears looking through old photos, but good memories.
Thanks again for such kind words. X

LucyAnna2 Thu 12-Sept-24 07:54:50

So sorry about your friend. Similar happened to me last year. M and I met at Uni in 1966, so not as long as your friendship, but pretty long! As with you, we shared many of life’s ups and downs, supporting each other with laughter and tears. We just “got” each other.

NanKate Thu 12-Sept-24 07:58:11

Babs03 how very sad for you.

One of my very closest friends died 2 years ago. Whenever I go to W.I. I think if her as the meeting place is on the cricket pitch in a small village. We used to meet there during covid and sit either end of a bench drinking coffee from a flask and chatting. On the 1st anniversary of her death I put a small posy of flowers on the bench. I regularly walk around there talking to her in my mind.

What a special friend you had. 💐🕊️

Tuaim Thu 12-Sept-24 08:05:47

It has been said: Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.
So sorry for your loss.

Doodledog Thu 12-Sept-24 08:45:30

I like that quote, Tuaim

Jane43 Thu 12-Sept-24 08:54:36

Sorry for your loss, it is hard. I had two very close friends from the age of 10, one didn’t make it to 70 and I lost Jean, who was my bridesmaid, five years ago. I still miss my visits to Jean who was virtually housebound and in and out of hospital, I miss our talks about the years we shared before our lives as wives and mothers and also putting the world to rights.

Ziggy62 Thu 12-Sept-24 09:15:23

So sorry for your loss, thinking of you xxx
My first husband died from pancreatic cancer in 2007, my best friend was with me when he died.
In January this year she died after coping with dementia for 8 years. I still cry nearly every day, especially when I hear Dancing Queen by Abba.
It's heartbreaking 💔