House or home

I am sorry you lost your husband. I am glad he loved the home. Fix it so the next person can love it and you can find a wee bungalow. Or stay there. It might never feel like home with DH gone but at least you dont get wet when it rains. Call a GP for anti-depressants if you need them to function. I know you can show your GD strength and character.

Sending you some flowers 💐
When life gets too overwhelmingly loaded with grief we can drown in a river of sadness I wonder if you had any help or bereavement counselling 8 years ago or ‘ just on with things’ I think it could be very helpful instead of going for gp tablets to consider some talking therapies
The other thing is I know you won’t think you feel up to it but volunteering can give a huge boost you meet others it can be very uplifting and take your mind off things there are so many organisations that need people
About the house, it can be overwhelming, (I know believe me) your husband loved it I m sure his presence is still there so perhaps you can learn to love it too
The summers coming, get out in the sunshine with those little great grandkids and face the sunshine, it will help

Thank you. I do already volunteer and did have some counselling. I meet friends and walk my dogs and look after animals for other people. With childcare it looks as though my life is full but when I think about or have to return to dealing with the house on my own my mood just slumps. Thank you for the flowers. I am a qualified therapist and we are notoriously hard to help!