Gillybob, no my husband didnt ride. The Ellenor (same as McMillan) nurses said they would find their own way with grieving, but Dreamworks films have a boy fishing whilst sitting on the moon, and our 3 year old gc just said 'that is grandad on the moon' so it stuck and has been a real comfort to the younger gc, and me at times, but wgen he tells grandad nanny has been crying, or can he please come back for a cuddle I dissolve into floods of tears (away from gc).
Gally it has only been 6 months for me, sorry not sure hiw long you have been widowed, but everyone tells me not to make any major decisions for a year, and like you my husbands wardrobes are still full of his clothes. That is somethjng I cannot bring myself to clear, not sure I ever will! I have many photographs of him around, with various grandchilrren over the years, formal photos from our various cruises and some of jyst him, it helps me, but I realise everyone deals with grief and loss differently. X