Thank you for all your replies and helpful advice everyone, I will take every suggestion seriously and investigate further.
As it happens, I've had a rotten day dealing with a physically aggressive person who threatened to make allegations against me. Fortunately, a colleague was there to offer their support and confirmation that I had done nothing wrong and had followed procedures. I did manage to calm him down. However, the incident did remind me that although I could stay and yes, I could fight the right thing for me to do is leave.
ReadyMeals that's a very kind thing to say, no parent gets everything right but we are very proud of all of our children and we've been very lucky, I think.
I plan to get my CV checked, I've updated my LinkedIn bio already, I'm contacting agencies and tentatively beginning to apply for jobs littleflo. I wish you well too.
If you've guessed correctly lollee then shhh
Gabriella personally I don't feel old, I'm fortunate enough to be fit and capable. Sadly, the world, specifically employers, don't necessarily see it the same way. When I say I'm 'old' in my mid 40s I mean no disrespect at all to anyone older, this simply refers to me being old and expensive from a professional perspective.
I am considering other courses libra and I'm excited at the prospect of learning, although deciding what exactly to choose is a different problem!
I'll be back later, dinner is ready