I have spoken before about my adult children and my focus on them, but - is it just me? I long for the day (even just one) when either of my offspring are just 'generally ok.' I hear people talking about their adult children (yes, he's doing ok/she's thinking of having a baby/yes...doing ok/etc. and I think, what did I do wrong? Mine are alway unhappy/unsettled/got a health worry/hair loss! - something. Neither can find a partner, let alone have children or allow me the comfort of knowing they have someone to share things with. I long for one day when they call to say 'yeah, all good,' or just something positive. Or is it my problem? I have a friend who says. 'Oh, I don't worry, not my problem anymore, I've got my life back.' I know I should do that, but I can't. Unless they are ok, I can't be. Now again today I am wracked with anxiety and sadness over them, and tired of it. Anyone else? Are yours all ok and doing fine? Or does it just look that way? I won't be around forever like all of us, and I wish I could fix things. I have always suffered from anxiety, and find it hard to disengage, as if it was my responsibility, or my own happiness is impossible without theirs.
Sorry to bore, but otherwise, its just me talking to myself.
Alphabetical girls and boys names January 2024