Lucky girl, I do hope you've managed to get some sleep. I woke early and found myself thinking about you, and all the other carers out there, and felt the sadness of it all quite overwhelming, but also life affirming. To love and be loved...not everyone gets that in life and it is a precious gift. I want to reach out and give you a virtual (((hug))).
Many replies on here stress the importance of being kind to yourself, it's easy to say but hard to do.
In a dark period of my life a counsellor told me that everyday I should do at least one little thing that was a treat (to me), as despair comes when our own needs aren't being met. Being British I thought this sounded very self indulgent, but she insisted, and surprisingly I found, slowly, that I began to enjoy my life again, albeit in a different landscape.
You sound to have been selfless for a long time, can you perhaps find time today to give yourself a little treat and a little credit?
All best wishes for today, and your husband is a lucky man. ? Heres a tiger for strength and courage!