Well it has been a rather stressful day and I feel exhausted but the overall gain is worth it all ( I think!) I had bought a secondhand ford focus with very low mileage, but my back has been getting worse and instead of having 2 bad days and 5 good per week it tends to be 5 bad and 2 good now. So great difficulty and pain getting in and out of the car, but didnt think I could afford to do anything about it. for the last week it has been a struggle and have been awake and worrying at 4 am etc, and couldnt think what to do for the best. Well there is a silver lining to dark clouds. Due to the lack of new cars second hand ones are holding their price, and my very good garage that I have bought from before, sell mobility cars. These cars are well looked after . Disabled people have these for 3 years and then change them. So , when I checked, the price of my car had gone up so much that I got more or less what I had paid for it , and sadly due to the covid situation, many mobility drivers have not been able to do much driving due to shielding. So upshot was that they had found me a second hand ford kuga with very low mileage. I have felt very worried about spending my savings on a car , but I have been left with only the options to change the car or stop driving. In a lot of pain and worrying about what to do no one to be able to go through it all with , and all sorts of hassle but today I did it, and have done all the paperwork and insurance and all that stuff and oh what a difference. I can get in and out of the car with only the ordinary pain that I live with, I feel I will be able to keep going. Best of all unbelievably it is a 2019 model with only 360 yes 360 miles on the clock. So I am looking at all the jobs I have not done and the piles of ironing I cant begin to do anything with but who cares? For the moment I have managed to get through buying a car , on my own, and think I have done ok and been fair to everyone. The relief is enormous, and the worry off my back so who knows , might even get some sleep tonight. i have been very grateful to read all your posts in the middle of the night, when I cant sleep and it lets me think of other things and is interesting to read what you are all doing. Obviously you have all known each other a lot longer than I have but it is great to be able to feel part of the everyday life of people, and follow interesting threads over time this last couple of years have been so grim and I have missed all the society of friends, swimming, choir, gardening etc. all the things that we just enjoy together and coping with moving and being alone has been tough , so thank you for all the interesting things you have written and I am sure you have saved my sanity over this past year!!
