Oh I so know how you are feeling, I'm crying writing this. We had to put our gorgeous, gentle labrador to sleep 4 weeks ago. She was 13 and for a few weeks had been struggling to walk due to arthritis. For the first time in her life she didn't want to eat, and we knew then that she'd just had enough of struggling. It was the hardest decision to put her to sleep, but we knew she just couldn't go on and it was the kindest thing to do. We are all heartbroken and I just can't get used to such an empty house. Our pets have a special place in our hearts and we can take comfort knowing we gave and received love in buckets.