Good morning Mick and all GN's from a grey and misty north yorkshire morning. A little breeze but just looks damp and miserable.
Another rubbish night but no surprise given feeling uptight about tomorrow. I am waiting for my Bach before 7am to lift my spirits and then am going to make a determined effort to do some very mundane jobs to at least keep myself occupied and less time for thinking.
I know how to put things away in drawers and to make lists and put them by for later. I just wish I could do the same with my brain and lock up the "eye and hospital " worry bit. Well will use my old counting back in threes from a thousand, which does make me concentrate on something else for a bit.
So yesterday at least I was able to do more shouting and yelling at the tv screen watching the rugby. Quite enjoyed the match, but it was actually more about releasing some energy really! I also was able to enjoy much on the radio both on radio 3 and 4. I find that it is "sods" law that there will be programmes I could enjoy on both channels , at the same time, and on one day there will be lots and lots I can choose from and then another day there seems nothing much.
Same with the tv too. I enjoy monday evening sort of BBC quiz night with mastermind and only connect and university challenge. Tonight there is going to be a new thing about chess, so will look at that and see if it is worth watching. done a little chess before , but it has been picking it up from various people at different times. They have just started a beginners course at Upfront on a friday morning, so I booked myself onto that. My plan is to go through it from the start and so hope to reinforce good things I have learnt and to try and stop bad habits. My worst thing at the moment is I have no problem remembering pawns only move forward in a straight line but tend to forget that they take on a diaganol. As I used to play draughts quite a bit too I have to concentrate on not thinking of taking several pieces at a time. So plenty to learn and practise and right now a good thing to concentrate on. Dont think I will be in the Bobby Fischer class at any time in the future but as I am not so able to get about outside it will be a way to keep the brain moving I hope at least.
By the way, I mention Upfront a bit , and I am lucky to have found it. It is a community place here, where you can do all sorts. So if you get a letter from the tax people or any official department, they have people who can help you go through those long and complicated forms; They do all sorts of groups and classes over the week, so there are craft groups, and various groups, a womens group on a thursday or wednesday evening, to which all women are welcome, with no need to book or commit to a specified time. Since I moved here I have found it a very useful place to find out things and get advice on a good plumber etc etc as we all help each other. ~So whilst I am a beginner at the chess on a friday on another day I am teaching simple whist - which I have played since I was 4, to other women. I found it quite amazing recently to meet 2 women in probably their 50's who dont even know the names of the suits of cards. Whilst I can understand someone not playing cards it seems strange to find they have never come across them. But my aim with them is to get them up to speed in simple games and then they can come to the whist drive and play. There is a super techi chap who is there on a tuesday morning, so if y our laptop drives you mad or whatever you can talk to him. We all contribute to help each other and so know the advice we get is not trying to make us spend money and we can trust the information we get. A brilliant scheme in my view, and when , fingers crossed, my eyes ar sorted out, I shall be joining their car service to take people to things such as medical appointments and also to be able to visit places or people who are not on a bus route etc.
Well the joy of Bach is now cheering the morning but the weather outside is not joining in. it looks wetter and even more grey than before, so indoor plans will be the order of the day.
Bellasnana, hope you put your alarm on in time for the tennis, and get some sleep beforehand.
Ladylfo Hope your sleep pattern gets back to normal soon. I used to find putting the alarm on for the same time each morning helped. Even if I felt shattered I would try and get up then just to help my body to remember the pattern, although of course, I often fell asleep in the afternoon!
Wishing everyone a productive and happy day and a peaceful night