Good morning Mick and all GN's on a very dark, chilly and still morning in north Yorkshire. Didnt start well as had a rubbish night, not sleeping well and painful back. Then did manage to fall asleep only to miss the bach and the plan to be up early lost. Creaking a lot this morning, havent dared to get into the shower yet and a lot of things I need waiting to be ironed yet. Gnash gnash, not the way I wanted to begin today. Will have to hope to wash away my feelings when I get in the shower.
Yesterday I was struggling with my back amongst other things, but did manage to go out and get most of the things I wanted. The present I had specially and awkwardly got ready for Nichola who has done so much for me this year, I took to Upready, struggling to get there through the crowds only to find that she had been so poorly she hadnt come in. I went home and did a bit more sorting out, but then felt it mattered that she had the present for christmas day, so reluctantly got the car out and drove to her house very carefully in the mad rush of demented drivers. Anyway got there without mishap, and delivered the present but didnt stay, not wanting to get any bugs myself, but pleased to see her and thank her for all her efforts on my behalf and then got safely home.
You can only make what efforts you can but it is a hard time for many of us and I arrived home, feeling pleased that I had made the effort, walked into the flat and then just suddenly was hit with that wave of sadness, walking into somewhere quiet with no family rushing about, missing my lovely husband, who was so good at calming things down, doing up parcels, making good suggestions and helping with everything. It is more than 8 years since he died now, and I manage as best as I can. You always miss someone dear to you, but have to learn a way of carrying on. Yet times like these just come at you and get under your guard. I know many of us are coping with these feelings but the one thing that I say to myself is that even though there is sadness there, I am glad that I still have him with me always and that at these special times I wouldnt want to forget him.
Well, I need to sort out what ironing is needed and get it done. The way I feel at the moment it will be stripped down to the minimum, but never mind, everything is clean and the bed changed etc. I am not having anyone to stay or coming here for christmas day but still have that habit of making sure that at least for the start of christmas day, everything is clean and tidied and sorted, however quickly that changes.
Must check through my things and make sure I have shoes and matching bits and bobs for my christmas outfit. The forecast is for very cold and I have to admit that I mostly live in trousers and tops and sweaters, so I must check out my things for a day of wearing a dress for once, and making the effort to look smart and tidy if not fashionable and elegant. Gone are the days when it mattered that I had picked the right colour or had something quite fashionable. I still chose a good colour that I like to wear, but comfort and ease of getting things on and off these days feature higher in my list!1 Well I still stick to the old adage from years ago. That you take care dressing and checking your outfit,do your make up and hair, look at it all in a long mirror and then forget about it all and just get on with your day. Just looked out of the curtains and there is a little light coming up, rather greenish and it is very cold. Can see the outline of the tree, and no wind or signs of life there. Did see a squirrel rushing about yesterday so they are still around somewhere.
Mick hope you have a good trip meeting lots of friends today. Bellasnana so pleased you are feeling a bit better and hope it continues to tomorrow .Karmalady, sorry you are having a down day. I hope that you can enjoy tomorrow with family and then return with a new bright idea for what you might like to start up in the new year. Look around now and see how much you have achieved this year, you have done so much and brought a lot of order to your home. I wish I had done half as much here. Maybe tomorrow an unexpected thought or present may come to you and lead you onto your next plan. May you draw on your calmness and knowledge to find your next adventure.
Wishing everyone on GN a happy day tomorrow, that you all have contact with those you love, whether in person , on the phone or online. Thankyou all for the year of interest, laughs, support and good ideas. I feel it has been a good part to my life to be part of this community and look forward to more tales of all sorts from all over. A happy christmas and a peaceful and healthy New Year to you all
