Hi, so I fell out with my husband Christmas Eve. We had a heated row (upstairs) our daughter aged 9 and son aged 8 dudmtbgearbit, but our daughter walked in, when I was telling my husband off so to speak (through grinded teeth). It was over a message I'd sent to his mum who breast it wrong and felt I was being sarcastic when I wasn't, and had a go at me on WhatsApp . I was really hurt, so I made a comment back. He came in from work and refused to ring her to try and calm the situation down and sort it put before Christmas day. He did eventually, but then proceeded to understand her point of view etc and didn't back me up despite me not being sarcastic etc.
Anyway, Christmas morning there was still tension between me and husband. We played the happy family's, but our daughter picked up on us, I guess she read me like a book and after opening presents, said she didn't feel well. This is anxiety as she's been like it once before when we've had a fall out. She then was sick. It was a little z but she's done thst before. I feel massive, massive mum guiltbright now still. There was that uncomfortable silence for a while after both ne and husband. And we trued to fake it the rest of the day, the rest of the day was OK. I'm very, very mumsy and I honestly want every holiday Christmas etc to be so magical and perfect and I am devastated our daughter got upset my us. She's since been quiet and looked sad on and off and I just so want to make it all go away but I can't as it's happened now. We did not argue at all, or do anything wrong she just picked up on the tension I guess without us realising it was showing. I don't know how to fix this? I feel like a shit mum and I just love them so much. I'm also concerned that she's made herself sick now twice.