For me, being a grandparent has been turbulent due to the violent men my daughter has chosen to have relationships with. I have been told at least ten times that I would not be allowed to see my beloved GS any more, the next day she wants me to have him, often for days at a time, and then he is taken away again. I love him so dearly and its endless pain of being denied access to him and then being allowed to get so close to him again only for him to be taken away again days later. I have had my life threatened, had to face unbelievable fear from both my daughter and her bf and yet I always try to look out for my dear GS, even if can only be from afar at times. It ain't always GRAND being a grandparent but my heart could burst with love for him. I only hope that he can look up to me with when he is older with love and pride and know that it was never, ever my choice for him not to be I my life.