Right now, I need a human touch and a hug from a friend. I know I'm not the only person in this situation and I don't want to be selfish but the prospect of months in isolation leaves me in despair.
I live alone now since my husband was killed in an accident 8 weeks ago. My only relative in this country is my daughter who lives 150 miles away. Others will understand the anguish and loneliness of being alone with no casual touch of a hand, an arm around the shoulders, all the little day to day contacts. The only thing that has kept me sane during police investigations and endless legal bureaucracy has been seeing friends and neighbours and having a hug.
Next Friday, OH's ashes will be interned in the presence of our friends and there will be lunch in the pub afterwards. As some of those friends are over 70, am i supposed to cancel? Some of them are coming long distances; are we to be forbidden an embrace in greeting and comfort?
I fear for the mental and emotional health of thousands of people if months of isolation are forced upon us - not to mention the decline in physical health when fresh air and a brisk walk are forbidden.
The grief, anxiety and stress are already having an effect on my rationality . I truly fear for my sanity if isolation is imposed. I'd rather take my chances with the virus than end up slitting my wrists in lonely grief.
Oh, and to those who think it couldn't be enforced: the Emergency Powers Act of the 1930s has not been repealed, so far as I'm aware. If the government chooses to invoke that, the military will be authorised to shoot anyone disobeying orders.