Do you ever feel this will never be over?

But it has only just begun!

I am peculiarly numb about the whole thing. It still feels surreal and I feel completely dissasciated from it all. I have a lot to do and I am glad of the possibility of completing projects I have wanted to do for years. DH has been working all most non-stop as well, 3 Skype meetings in a row, 6.00am phone calls, lunch al desko. In a few weeks this project will be complete and he will not be working so hard, it may hit me then.

I also think it is the not seeing people one knows and talking and seeing them in real life. I realised that when I spoke to my neighbours briefly last night when we were all out clapping for the NHS. I suddenly realised how I missed seeing people I know, walking around the village and saying hallo to everyone, one passes isn't the same because I do not know them.

The good weather helps as well, there is so much to do in the garden and by the time I come in I am so tired.

I am sure it will hit me soon, but the longer it takes the better.

No, Greymar, nobody should tell you ‘it could be worse’ as, right now you’re going through a tough time emotionally. I think you need a big hug.
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It’s scary. All we can do is hope for better times ahead. x

Yes Oops, but thats it, I am beginning to feel as if it won't pass. As if this is it and I will be trapped here forever.

please, nobody tell me it could be worse.

Sorry Laibaik , a tough day by the sound of it.

I've had the same conversation with a friend today saying pretty much the same thing. I can't decide if it will get easier as we become more used to this way of life, or harder. But today has felt particularly difficult.

This too shall pass.

As my wonderful Grandma always used to say

Sometimes I feel I want to do a sort of Russian Roulette with myself and find out if I'm someone who would survive the virus or not; the uncertainty of not knowing frightens me.; does that make sense or am I just losing the plot? I am having a bit of a wobble today I must admit.

Thank You , I can't settle to anything. So much for all this learn another language and so on!

It’s understandable Greymar as it’s the unknown isn’t it? I think we probably all have a wobble now and again. I find I’m mostly okay during the day but if I wake in the wee small hours the awfulness of it all hits me. The lockdowns world wide, the sheer scale of the pandemic, the major hits to global economy, the anxiety it all generates. It seems surreal. Like a dystopian novel. It frightens me. Then I go back to sleep until another day loops around.

I think most of us think the same Greymar,

You have to take each day as it comes. If you try to think ahead you will just drive yourself crazy. One day at a time never rang truer than now. Have a nice Easter and enjoy your garden.

I think I’m more worried that it will end, then resurge, maybe more than once.

I think we all know the feeling Greymar but we have to believe that it will end even if, far from seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, we cannot even imagine where the end of the tunnel will be.
Bon courage!