Can't do right for doing wrong

I agree with mum of madboys whole heartedly.
Ok you were upset and went on defensive( we all would) but you seem to be doing things the best you can .
My mum is 83 and I've been cross with her a few times re social distancing with neighbours but it's out of fear. Fear of her suffering and fear of losing her. Could be they struggle with this too.
We are losing enough family members with virus without losing them through arguements. Maybe write down how you feel and send it ( or not). Then move on.
Keep safe

Your adult children are showing complete lack of respect towards you. You have to look after your mental health as well as your physical health and if that means a walk with the dog, then so be it. I would just not tell my children anything, in fact I wouldn't contact them. Look after yourself both mentally and physically.

Sounds to me as if you are towing the line in respect of the lockdown — my daughter is the opposite and takes the view life is short and do what you are comfortable with as long as not hurting others.
I am sorry you have this problem but what stuck me is that the issues between you and your children are complex and deep seated and perhaps need sorting after the lockdown lifts. They still care enough about you and you still worry about them so hang onto that

Good luck and keep walking that dog it’s what keeps us sane !

Seems to me you have acted within the guidelines. Shopping because you are able to and not too often. Your kids have treated you badly (they can all do it sometimes). Put it out of mind and don't tell them your every move. You are not stupid! They have been unkind and thoughtless in the way they have dealt with this. Now forgive and forget.

Your children are bullies and soo unkind. Try to calm your mind and go quiet on them. Don’t tell them what you do or don’t do.
Only do what makes you happy and that you would like to do. I’m so sorry for you.
Love and pray for peace in your life x

Well I wouldn't be bloody apologising to them. As poster above says, remind them you are the parent, they are the child, you do not wish to be talked to ever again in that manner. You are following government guidelines and are not in the shielded group so have done absolutely nothing wrong. It may have done some good to remind your son that his past actions had consequences for you - he probably never thought about you at all. Selfish that's what they are.

Silver lining, we are all in the same boat. We mustn’t dare mention any past misdemeanours on our children’s part EVER. They know everything and we know nothing,
It’s because of loving them more than they love us.

My husband had just finished his radiation treatment and we were in France having a much earned rest from the turmoil of the last few years. My Husbands Mother had also just died, when we received a call from one of ours to come to his house in the UK and look after his wife who was recovering from a illness, bearing in mind she is in her early thirties and we are pensioners. He wanted to go back to work and although her family all live near by, my son considers them feckless. He had forgotten all the trauma we had been through or where we were.
They just don’t think about us much. I consider I have a close family. The children all ring almost daily but they offload on us constantly. If we do..we can get in the middle of a sentence.” .I need to go now Mother as I am hungry/tired” etc.
They will bloody well miss us when we have gone.

I agree with all Jeanie99's comments and suggestions.
Be calm, bake cakes and don't contact them. It's your life! Enjoy.

yorkie20 is spot on.
My children who are in their mid 30`s wouldn`t dream of speaking to me in that manner , if anything they offer support at all times.

I don’t see why you should apologise for anything. You children sound vile and bullying, whilst you sound lovely. Leave contacting them, I’m sure when they don’t hear from you they will be calling. Enjoy the peace and calm with your husband. What you say your routine is sounds perfectly acceptable and within guidelines and if you are happy with it that’s fine.

I think you should apologise for bringing up their drug using past. It would have been better to have left that in the past. I don't blame you though as you have obviously been through a lot with them. However it is good to acknowledge our faults and apologise for them. It is also setting a good example showing you are capable of seeing your own faults and saying sorry for them. I agree with others that there is no need to tell them the details of what you do.I would do what I could to fix the relationship as soon as possible and not let things fester. Hope things improve.

Oh dear,
I guess I would go along with the governments recommendations, do as you are already doing. Go out for the daily walk, try and get click and collect food or deliveries when you can.
I can imagine you are thinking about what was said and this is making you depressed and miserable, you may not be sleeping also with the worry.
I'd get myself into a routine asap, keep busy, ring friends, try cooking new recipes, listen to your favourite music. Mainly try to stop going over and over what was said.
I'd send post cards and letters to the grandchildren to let them know you are thinking of them and love them.
Life at this time is very challenging for so many people, your children may have problems you know nothing about but I do think they have been especially rude and disrespectful to you.

32111 For the poster who said they were only showing concern for their parents, I disagree. It appears some adult children relish the opportunity of telling their parents what they can and cannot do.

If you are generally fit and healthy, I really don't see why being over 70 is an issue. Of course, it has been shown that the older generation is more at risk from this virus but that may well be because many older people have chronic conditions, such as diabetes 2, arthritis, high cholesterol, heart problems, etc, etc.

People are permitted to take exercise and to go shopping, provided they stick to the distance rules. In fact, I think it is important for their physical and mental health to get out of the house. There are several people on Gransnet who have been completely self isolating and some of them now say they will be afraid to go out, even if the situation has improved.

I think your children are rude, bullying and disrespectful. Perhaps it was unwise to bring up the substance abuse but, having been called fucking idiots, it's not surprising you retaliated.

I should just leave them to it for a while. You and your husband are not children and are quite capable of making your own decisions.

geekesse I think the incident you describe is different from that of the OP. If you son was worried because you hadn't returned home and he was unable to contact you, then I think that was inconsiderate of you. But possibly I have misunderstood.

The one and only time my eldest son tried to ‘tell me off’, I reminded him that I am the parent and he is my child, not the other way around. What I choose to do, and how I choose to do it, is not for him to decide. We still have a lovely relationship, but he and his siblings got the message.

He took issue with my daughter and I having a somewhat boozy night on the town in London. I missed the last train home so stayed over in her flat, and my phone battery ran out of juice, so I didn’t answer when he tried to ring. I didn’t call him back until the next day when I had got home, recharged the phone, and taken a double dose of Alka Seltzer. He said I was irresponsible. I told him very firmly that he should never take that tone with me again. He hasn’t.

Try it. They might be adults, but we are their parents, and they are way out of order if they try to order us around.

Thanks Silverlining, In a weird way its almost comforting that someone else knows how it feels to be told what to do by your children, children in an adults body. Mine just turned on me when I pointed out these things, "The letter" being the main one, which somehow was our fault we didn't have one. I have to say that is when I lost it and said what I said. So easy isn't it, in the blink of an eye, concern turns to something else. Here's hoping that our generation, will stop being blamed for everything that has or is happening.

You are not alone, we also get the first degree about what we have done, and what to do and not to do. It sometimes feels like they treat us as children.
We are staying in apart from a daily walk but needed to go to the chemist who are not delivering and got cross examined. Then when our food was delivered apparently we should have bleached it all, then stripped off and had a shower....It does cause us stress but they are not abusive. Presumably they are worried about you.
As for getting help my adult children gave me a council phone no. to ring for help with shopping, chemist etc and when I rang I was told they can’t help with anything unless we had The Letter.
I am sorry you are upset. I hope things resolve.

Thank you all for your kind words and sensible advise, to all of you who suggested I not say what I'm doing, you are so right, lesson learnt, but never been good at fudging, but if they ever decide to speak to me again, I will, and big style.
I'll get around to making peace, but not just now, need to calm down, and as I'll be doing it in writing, have to be careful what I say, the written word is just that, no tone, no expression. I agree I may have crossed a line, but so have they, I'm aware that substance abuse it complex, I lived with an alcoholic for 19 years and became an enabler of that abuse, and having worked for the police for 25 years at the front counter of a police station, I have a lot of experience about the subject, however when in it, difficult to see wood from trees. However knowledge is only part of it, living it and dealing with it are the others, and knowledge does not stop the hurt, just helps a bit to get you through it. So whilst I dealt with the mechanics of the drugs misuse, it still hurt and maybe no matter how complex the issues were, its hard to get over the personal feelings.
But, all the kind words and encouragement help a lot, thanks again to you all, you are kind people, and the empathy is felt.

70 is not shielded. They are entitled to exercise and shopping.

I've heard of other adult children telling their parents what to do, to stay home and not go shopping etc. Others are much more laid back and let their parents decide.

Perhaps some of them are just scared of being left without parental support and of having to deal with the repercussions.

I'm sorry that you feel bullied and that the relationship has turned so unpleasant.

Another one here who wouldn't tell them what I was doing.

I always think people get angry when they know they’re in the wrong. It sounds like you brought up the drug problem after being battered down, as a form of defence. No one could blame you for that, you’re only human. They’re old enough to dish it out, so they can take it as well. I would think about the times when they were young, ( hope these were good), and enjoy those memories. Don’t dwell on how things are now. What you do has nothing to do with them. It sounds like you’re doing everything as you should. Enjoy your time with your husband, and leave your well grown up kids to their own devices. If and when they can be civil....and we return to normal, perhaps you can sort it out then.

I wouldn’t tell them what I was doing. You know that you are acting sensibly so I’d just keep quiet.

I really feel your pain! They clearly both have anger over their past experiences and are still acting like children, trying to put the blame on you and not accepting that they got themselves into bother and you tried to help them. Their lack of acknowledgement of the help and support you gave must be a bitter pill. Also, their concern doesn’t come across as being for you but more for their own ideas as to what you should be doing. I certainly don’t agree that either of you should be shielding. Essential shopping trips and daily exercise along with social distancing and good hygiene is what should be happening. As others have suggested, I’d simply not tell them what you were doing. If asked outright, try fudging a little. They are trying to control you from 200 miles away! You seem to be handling lockdown in a very sensible way. You really don’t need to do more.

Your middle aged adult children are disrespectful. I would never let my two speak to me like that nor would they.

I dont think the OP did cross the line, one of her adult children called her a Fucking Idiot they were being reminded that they did far worse. Seems these people can dish it out but not take it.

I dont care how complicated this is, as one poster mentioned above. The adult children also crossed a line.

you seem to have missed the point that they are concerned about you You are in the wrong for bringing up the past It would seem you are following the rules but the one of you who is over 70 IS in vunerabe group