Feeling really low

We were feeling like that yesterday evening so got Youtube on the tv and binge watched Micky Flanagan (with glass in hand). We both had a good laugh.

I feel a lot better now some restrictions are being lifted and we can see by other countries that life will return to somewhat normal. I take a lot of encouragement from these signs while at the beginning I was in despair. Even a walk in a different area helps a lot to lift one's mood. So there is a light at the end of the tunnel!

I do hope you can pick yourself up. It must be a horrible feeling. The Black Dog is always lurking in the shadows ready to pounce. He visits me often.
I have no advice but send virtual hugs anyway to anyone who is feeling low today.

Lizbethann55 I understand how you feel. I have shed more tears this past week than in my entire adult life.

I had found an inner strength from somewhere for the first 8 weeks that helped me cope. But in recent days it seems to have evaporated and my head is a jumble of worry.

My overriding worries are about my 2 AC and 4 GC and what the future holds for them. Their health, financial security, GC’s education etc

Then I try to remind myself we are all currently in good health and have a roof over heads and not everyone is so fortunate.

I hope you have just hit a short lived rough patch and will soon be back on track ?

You've articulated exactly how I feel Lizbethann55; thanks for being brave enough to come on here and describe it so well. A year ago I moved from a much loved home to where I am now, so that I could be closer to family and help out with childcare. But that's now impossible and I just feel...... marooned. Some days are better than others but that overall feeling of "what's the point" is like a lead weight.

Another reason you may be feeling down is this has been going on for several weeks now, and as my late mum would have said, “The novelty’s wearing off!”

When this began, it was scary and unreal, but different, so the empty spaces, roads, shops, made it all ‘exciting’ but in a strange, surreal way.

Now, however, we realise that this is life for a considerable time yet, and although restrictions are changing, there is no way the immediate future is normal.

But this is ‘it’, and all we can do is keep busy in our own way, but not feel guilty if we have days when we just don’t want to do much, and try and be thankful for our many blessings, which isn’t always easy I know.

Lizbethann. I’m glad I saw your post this morning, I’m up really early DH still in bed. I know exactly how you feel,Ive been feeling low for a few days now, especially when I read the news this morning about type 1 diabetes, your 3 and a half times more likely to die, one of my darling grandchildren has this and I just burst into tears. I’m so worried about them all, and I can’t see that changing for a long time yet.
At least at the moment I know their safe at home, long may it last.

Awful isn’t it? I spend a lot of time telling myself “to pull myself together” it’s really not working. I only seem to manage things in small bites. So I’ll do one thing then sit and mope. Then tell myself off and try again. I’m normally an avid news watcher but I’ve had to turn it off. Yesterday I couldn’t even manage local commercial radio. Even the ‘good news’ stories are starting to drive me mad and upset or annoy me. How bad is this thought, when I see all the positive things people including children are doing for or during this pandemic I want to shout “shut up, just shut the #£&* UP” I don’t want to hear your having a wonderful time/dealing with it positively/ being wonderfully optimistic, being such fantastic supportive people.” it’s so not like me. I don’t understand why I feel like I do and I’m a bit ashamed.

lizbethan I think you feel as you do because the prospect of retirement is looming and you feel that they way you feel now will be the way you feel after you retire. This won’t necessarily be the case, it depends what you have planned for your retirement. It can be an opportunity to try out new hobbies, spend time doing the sort of things you’ve always wanted to do. Yes we are restricted at the moment but it won’t go on forever. There can be holidays to look forward to, visiting some places In this country you have never been to. Taking a more leisurely pace to the day. Breakfast with the crossword, lazy lunches in the garden. Walks in the country. Your retirement will be what you make it. Life in lockdown isn’t the same as being retired. The lockdown will end at some point. I have been retired a few years now and I’m still struggling to find time for my hobbies each day. I hope your spirits lift soon. Many are having a few wobbles in the strange circumstances we find ourselves in. Take care

Testing their vaccine......

Lizbethann, I think all of us have down days, feeling life is passing us by, precious time stolen from us, when we should be seeing our loved ones and friends, going on holidays or even just going out for a meal.
The only real way to beat this virus is if a vaccine is found and my hope is that Oxford University, who are now testing their virus, could be the one.
Fingers crossed!
But even if, not that one!
We will find a vaccine and all will go back to normal.
Everyone is in the same boat, Young, old, rich, poor!
All lives put on hold but we will come out of this!
I am sure! ?

Yes Lizbethann our life will be no more than getting up, cooking, online shopping, a walk in the park, if we are lucky!

You are not alone. I have felt the same. Last week I wanted to run out into the middle of the road which runs through our village and shout obscenities. I too feel that life is passing me by. We actually managed to sell our house just before lockdown and now that restrictions are being lifted it looks like we'll be moving house in a few weeks but thus far we have absolutely nowhere to live as we always planned to go into a rental property initially before deciding where to settle. We are planning to relocate to Scotland from England but as Scotland is still "closed" we can't view any potential rental properties. I feel your frustration and send you a big hug. It will be OK. X