Maybee70 It's so easy for people of any age to 'misplace' those immediate affectionate feelings when we don't see one another as often as we used to.
But you know, May, love isn't a habit or a duty, it's there in our hearts always and whilst it may just smoulder a little when we're out of contact, it soon flares up to its old warmth once we are able to see one another again. It will for you and yours as well.
If the grandchildren are young, it might take a little time to get used to you again. Only natural.
My grand-daughter howls every single time she sees me snd it hurts because I know for sure if I saw her regularly, that wouldn't happen.
Bear it mind too, that your family, being together, have had to entertain themselves in these dire days. From necesity, not choice they've been separated from you.
No one's fault but at least, as we all trickle back into normality, you'll have the chance to build up the old (and possibly better) relationship you had before.
Be patient with them - and yourself and try not to feel that out of sight meant out of mind - love doesn't work like that.
