I feel sorry for you, ItsaWelshthing. You are obviously a very caring and thoughtful person who feels overwhelmed with all the things that are going on in the world at the moment, but it has always been so and it has also been much worse, think of world wars, the Black Death and the 1918 flu pandemic, to name but a few. We are lucky that science has found a way out of this current pandemic. I think you have got things out of proportion. May I suggest that you listen to reputable news broadcasts and discussions such as the BBC and ITV, likewise with newspapers, and avoid the conspiracy theorists who do not have the backing of mainstream science (even though they probably say they do). Yes, you may have to find a new career but, as others have said, we need to protect the vulnerable in care homes. If you still decide not to have the vaccine you may still be able to find new employment where you do not come into contact with the public. You are right about Gransnet being kinder than Mumsnet, we are also perhaps, due to our age and life experiences, wiser. Most of us here will have had two jabs by now and we have lived to tell the tale. Give it some thought and I wish you all the best whatever you decide.