SUPPORT for all living with the pain of estrangement

You're very welcome PF x

Oooh yes I love iced coffee especially the posh stuff oh and gingerbread so I've hope you'll have some left overs hugshelp

I'm pleased it went well Smileless.

That all sounds delicious hugshelp - if you have any leftovers, send them this way!

And thank you all for your encouragement and support.

I'm glad for them all it went well smiles

I'm having a batch cooking day. DD and I both have special (and different) dietary requirements so I scratch make almost everything - and my ingredients are a bit unusual. But I've made soups, chocolates, bread, and gooseberry cakes today.
Tomorrow is gingerbread - it's DD and her OH's 'first date anniversary' at the weekend and it's one of their favourites, so a big celebration gingerbread thing to make. And I have some cartons of posh iced coffee to go with (which I think bleugh to but it's the sort of thing they like).

Mr. S. said it was really lovely. There were 20 members from her bowl's club and 10 stood on either side of the road up to the crematorium.

When the hearse pulled in and they were seen, it stopped and one of the undertaker's got out and walked the rest of the way in front of the car and they all clapped.

He said it was very moving. I hope it was a comforting sight to her family. It must be so hard when there's a restriction on the number of mourners.

PF So wise to have therapy to help you enjoy the "new reality". It is good that you are able to have some sort of relationship with your DD1. You are so wise to leave the relationship between her and her sisters for them to work out. And .. .. as Smileless says!

Good morning all. Rain just starting to ease off here.

I hope the funeral goes well for Mr S and his friends smiles

I'm very happy for you enjoying your daughter's company and music PF. I'm so glad DGD1 is in your life now, even though there are many hard things. I see you moving forward, however painfully and I think it's wonderful.

What pantglas said, hang in there. x

You're an inspiration PF x

Thanks Pantglas.

I know you have said that it gets better, but do you ever really get over it and come to terms with the hurt? She just wants to pick up where we left off and is incredibly defensive if there is even the slightest reference to the past. She just doesn’t get how much she hurt us all. She clearly wants to pick up with her sisters as well but, although I haven’t said so, I am not sure that’s possible. Anyway, that’s between them.

I feel a negative thought pattern coming on......

Keep up the good work Petitfromage and hope all goes well with the therapy ?

Good morning everyone.

It's sunny here and my youngest daughter has come back for the first time since lockdown, which is wonderful. I am listening to her playing the piano right now and filling the house with music, which makes me happy. It is also lovely for our middle daughter to have her here, who has been with us throughout, as they are very close.

This weekend will be DGD1's 2nd birthday, so we have sent a card and specific gifts which DD1 chose. It's quite strange to think that we did not even know of her existence on her first birthday a year ago and, in my heart, her birthday to me will be the date when DD1 told us about her. I was tempted to say that to her but, of course, that would be a most unwelcome remark. I know she can't change what has gone before, none of us can, but the hurt still strikes from time to time. It is less often but, when it does, the pain cuts deep.

I have started therapy, in order. to try to re-train my brain away from negative thought patterns, so hopefully that will help. I don't want to destroy what we have, even if it is less than we used to have or, I feel, what we might have had. But I know that I will have very mixed feelings on DGD's birthday, thinking that two years ago, you held your first born in your arms and you didn't want to share that with your family, with her family.

Anyway, today is a good day and wishing everyone a good day. I hope the sun comes out for Mr S.

A miserable grey, chilly and wet morning here. Mr. S. is going to pay his respects at the funeral of an old school friend who played lawn green bowls. The club members are going to line up outside the church in their white match play clothes.

Just hoping that it stops raining.

I have mixed emotions about Christmas but I'll be glad to see the present difficulties sod off that's for sure.

I liked the idea that went around, to just sod off the rest of this year and go straight to Christmas

hugshelp I think you're right it's Yogagirl's Christmas hat that's got you thinking about turkeys.

Just got back from a lovely walk by the river with Mr. S. and the dogs. The weather has really improved since this morning so it's a BBQ for tea.

Hello yogagirl. It's good to ruffle a few feathers occasionally. Leave some Turkeys in a barn full of turkey food and they will fatten themselves up for Christmas. Maybe pointing out there are other things out there might help. Must be the Christmas hat making me think about turkeys lol...

Right, after ruffling a few feathers myself I better get something done today. x

Oh yes of course he did, I do remember now. Thanks for reply to pm S , so you have my work update etc above. xx

I was going to ask you that very thing Yogagirl

Bowie died in January 2017 aged 69 he looked good which is why it was such a shock to those who didn't know he had cancer that he died.

There must be an appetite for authentic yoga and anyway you're 65 years young, not old at all and I bet you can do things with your body some of these younger instructors can only dream about.

Good to see you posting. I shouldn't worry about having ruffled a few feathers. Those whose feathers you ruffled are more than happy to do do feather ruffling themselves.

Where did that Xmas hat come from? lol

Thank you Smileless & Hugs All quiet on the work front. I did ruffle a few feathers so keeping a low profile now. Fear it will be in with the new out with the old when my clubs reopen, David Lloyds that is, the others have already contacted me to confirm I can go back as was. But DL gave one instructor 10 classes of fitness yoga, she's not a yoga teacher, so it's more like 'yoga moves', she is a lovely girl, v. good instructor, but teaches body pump, legs, bums & tums, fitness Pilates & now new on her belt 'fitness yoga'
I teach 90mins classes, which the clubs can't get their heads round, all 60min classes. These new outdoor classes are just 45mins till we open up as before. But I don't think the clubs care about authentic yoga & as I am 65yrs I think they will take the opportunity to 'out with the old, in the the new!' So if I get one class back in one club & two in the other I will be lucky.

Did you see David Bowie in the Glastonbury festival repeated over the w/e. how old is he now? He looks good.

Did skip about 6 pages, as too much to read in one go, so hope I haven't missed anything I shouldn't have.

Take care all xxx

We enjoyed ours; hope you all enjoyed yours.

Those all sound delicious.

Chilli for us, with a side of chips because I've lost too much weight lately according to my husband

Ooh I love spag bol cold chicken, new potatoes and salad tonight.

Spag Bol for us !