I love your garden Whiff. It looks manageable and lovely to sit in, in the sunshine.
I haven't been on Gransnet much recently. Having some difficult times and was finding that GN just didn't help. But I am glad that everyone got themselves through Easter, despite all the challenges, sadness and worries that are faced. A belated Happy Easter and hurray for the sunshine! 
Hope you all had the best Easter you can. Moving for me was the best thing I could have done. Ok lost my son and grandson's but that was his choice not mine. Funny how he was happy to have me closer for 7 months and came every week with his 2 eldest then suddenly I was vindictive and manipulative ?.
But I have gain so much more. In my old house I existed . I rattled round a large house had to have a gardener because my garden was to much for me . Even though after my husband died the house was mine. It was still our house, the children's bedrooms. Until both of my parents and mother in law died I wasn't living my life as I wanted to because whilst alive they needed me. I was on call 24/7. But I don't regret looking after them even my horrible mother in law. She was my husband's mom.
My only worry moving was would I like my neighbours. I have far better neighbours than I have ever had.
My thinking had changed . The bungalow is mine . My choice of colours and any new things I have brought it's what I want. I cleared both front and back gardens of plants I didn't like and replanted. It may seem selfish to think this way but after my mom died finally I was free. For once in my life I put me first. Funny enough both my son and daughter said it's about time mom. Plus finally found out I was born with a heart defect and I was born with a hereditary neurological condition. I finally have a label for what's wrong with me. Now if anyone one asks I can say I have and give them the name instead of explaining all my symptoms.
The only thing I miss of my own life is seeing one of my friends and my nephew weekly. But we keep in touch via text and phone. My friend is coming to stay in June Monday to Friday. Can't wait to show her around.
Since Wednesday it's been no stop. I am still exploring roads where the massive houses are which I did then walked to Aldi for my top up shopping. Taxi home as 4 bags of shopping.
Thursday didn't go to craft group as the Easter egg hunt at the Methodist church changed from 11 to 1.30 and didn't want to miss out on the fun with my daughter and grandson's. It was very fair and each child could collect 20 eggs they where hidden all over the large gardens. My daughter and eldest grandson when off so I pushed the youngest in his buggy. I was talking about finding eggs and he point to a tree and there was an egg but really think he was only pointing at the tree. One of the moms gave him an egg she had found. That sums up what the people are like up here. There were bunny shapes for the children to colour in and biscuits they could put on there own topping plus drinks for them. Afterwards we went to the park which is only a few roads away from my home. It's a lovely park . People where playing bowls . There is a beautiful tree it must be grafted as some of the blossom was pink and some white. And a lovely safe play ground for the children.
Friday afternoon they came and while my daughter and son in law put all the new panels in my greenhouse I looked after the boys . In the past looked after them separately by myself but both together I had forgotten what it was like having 2 of different ages . Even though their parents where in the garden it was still a juggle and having to keep an eye on the youngest fun.
I had missed so much of the older grandson's growing up living so far away. So really appreciate the time I spend with my youngest grandson. I have seen him grow since he was 4 days old.
It's bitter sweet as I never got the chance to know my son's youngest or even know his name. And know his brothers will have forgotten me by now.
But I know how lucky I am to have my daughter and family.
Saturday I put everything back into my greenhouse and planted 62 french bean seeds. After I had spoken to my friend in the Midlands for nearly 2 hours.
Sunday weeding the gardens . Yesterday went mad cleaning and today painted over the damp proof paint with the colour. Nearly committed a painting faux par. Noticed I had knocked the walls in my living room in a couple of places them realised I needed the grey paint not lilac ???. Phew disaster averted. Job for another day. Got my winter coats drying in the sun .
The pics are part of my back and front gardens.
Purplepixie have a wonderful time when you spend the day with your son. Sorry you didn't get any thank you's for the Easter gifts .
Smiles glad the choir was in full voice and you raised the roof.
Spring and Hugshelp good luck property hunting. It will stress you out but moving is well worth it.
Take good care of yourselves.
Your garden looks lovely PP and it sounds as if the local bird life likes it too
.
It is hard seeing other families together when we're missing our own. We went out for lunch and a wander round a lovely quaint small town and beautiful village and I must say that seeing GP's and their AC and GC doesn't affect me like it used too, hardly at all TBH.
Just remember that we're all here for one another and I know that when we are feeling down, that can be the hardest time to post but is often the time when we need one another the most.
Love and hugs to you too
x
I have noticed that the mood with us all seems to be extremely low at the moment. When I had my shower this morning I had a good cry. The good news though is the fact that I am visiting my youngest son for the day. It will be one day next week when he finds out which day he can have off work. I’ll get my train tickets booked once I know. Something to look forward to at least.
My garden photo - this is the view from the conservatory where I watch the birds. It’s a bit messy compared to some gardens and not very big, but I love it. Currently there are blue tits nesting in the nest box, blackbirds in the old shed and robins somewhere close by. I planted the raised beds with dahlias, delphiniums and planted some sunflower seeds in pots. It is keeping me sane at the moment.
Have a lovely Easter monday. Just watched as one of our neighbours has their daughter etc arrive this morning. I am so envious as I haven’t a clue where my eldest son and daughter plus families are right now. So sad but at least I have my lovely youngest son. Such a love.
Love and hugs to you all.
Lovely to see your post PP and sorry that you've been feeling down. If you've been keeping up to date with the thread, you'll see that you're not alone as we all seem to have been hit with feeling below par too.
It's horrible not to acknowledge gifts, leaving the sender to wonder if they were received and opened by those the were sent for.
Moving is a huge event, the stress of buying and selling not to mention packing everything up. We were fortunate because we were spending most of our time at our holiday home and were able to afford to pay the removal firm to pack everything for us.
It took 3 men one day a two hours the following morning to pack what would have taken weeks and been very hard emotionally. Having the packing done for us and not living in the house, enabled me to detach myself emotionally which I'm sure is why I coped so well when leaving the house for the last time.
Glad you had a good day yesterday hugshelp. We did too, church in the morning and then a concert in the afternoon for my choir. It went well thank goodness because our pianist and choir master were both absent due to Covid!.
You don't realise just how much you rely on someone indicating when to stand, come in, sing softer or louder, holding notes for the correct number of beats etc., until they're
not there
. Lots of compliments when we'd finished so must have been OK.
I know what you mean about the loss of confidence Allsorts that's what prompted my panic attack a couple of weeks ago, and why I find all the pieces our choir sings on youtube and practice them over and over again, even when I know I know the music like the back of my hand, and worry that I wont be able to hit the high notes, which I can't do if I've stressed myself out!!
Contemplating a move with no backup must be daunting, it's daunting when the back up is there. I don't think about what our GC might have been told about us, and as a result, what they may think.
Mr. S. used too but has stopped now. I would say to him, what's the point? We can't do anything about it and we moved so that the day would never come when they were older and may go past us as if we don't even exist.
A new start enabled us to close that chapter in our lives and begin a new and much happier one.
'Happy Easter' dear friends.
That's so true Spring. Taking the decision to move because of estrangement isn't easy, especially when you never thought you'd leave the home where you'd raised your family.
Doing so for us, was accepting what had happened and that there was nothing we could do about it. So there comes a time to embrace this new phase in your life and focus on what you have, what the future holds and not just on what you have lost.
You'll find the right place. It may be like it was for us, we thought we'd found it until we got back the surveyors report
. Then we found this one which had only just gone on the market so had we gone ahead with the other purchase, we would never found the one we've made our home.
It's good that you've got all those DIY jobs finished hugshelp. Keep looking, there's somewhere out there for you, you just haven't found it yet.
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