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Last night I had a dream

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OnwardandUpward Tue 03-Jan-23 08:45:06

It really felt real, to the point that when I woke up I was surprised to be 20 years older.

The dream was all my kids in the house as junior school ages- they weren't well so they had missed school and I'd had to miss work. Even though they weren't well enough for school they had become excitable and were playing and laughing together. The dream was so real that I "felt" them bump into me as they went down the hall and the laughter was so loud.
Then the doorbell went and my friend was at the door. She hugged me and (so weirdly) I smelt her hair. She could see that the kids had turned manic and said they must be feeling better. We laughed about it and she went again .

It was a happy memory. It felt SO REAL. We did have happy times. All my kids had fun together and with us too. We had lots of quality time. If I could go back and do it all again, I can't see how I could have done anything better because I always gave my best.

I don't think I've had many dreams where I could feel , smell and touch before. I don't feel unhappy, just validated because I know we were a happy family, as happy as anyone actually is. Anyone else had this type of vivid dream?

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Whiff Tue 03-Jan-23 08:53:15

No but I do wake myself up talking. I can only assume I have been having a conversation with some out loud and it wakes me up. I do cry in my sleep or did as my husband used to wake me up to check on me. May still do it but I am on my own .

Unfortunately our estranged children have amnesia when it comes to happy times spent with us. My son forgets we had a lovely time on my birthday then 4 days later that email .

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Oreo Tue 03-Jan-23 10:08:31

Yes, now and then I do.
Seems so real that when you wake it’s a big disappointment.☹️

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Gingster Tue 03-Jan-23 10:12:13

Now and again I have a panic dream.
Usually I’ve lost one of the children. I wake up shouting their name!

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OnwardandUpward Tue 03-Jan-23 13:31:20

Whiff

No but I do wake myself up talking. I can only assume I have been having a conversation with some out loud and it wakes me up. I do cry in my sleep or did as my husband used to wake me up to check on me. May still do it but I am on my own .

Unfortunately our estranged children have amnesia when it comes to happy times spent with us. My son forgets we had a lovely time on my birthday then 4 days later that email .

Aww Whiff! It's so sad. The last time we were allowed to visit my son's home was Easter last year, but by the evening after we had gone home he was posting vile things online. I thought the visit had gone well and we only stayed a few hours, so as to not outstay our welcome.

I have woken myself up snoring!

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Oreo Tue 03-Jan-23 15:57:40

Honestly what’s with all these ungrateful adult children?!
Wonder how they’ll like it if their kids do the same in the future?
I don’t think I could ever visit again OnwardsAnd Upwards if that was me.
Unless you know they have mental health problems anyway.

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Nell8 Tue 03-Jan-23 16:14:40

Last night I had a vivid dream in which I was playing a tennis match at Wimbledon and losing badly (I can't play tennis). I woke up with a strong feeling of embarrassment and failure.
I can usually attribute my dreams to something current in my life. I'm sure this one's the result of receiving Christmas round robin letters describing the fabulous achievements of other people and their offspring! ☹️

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Smileless2012 Tue 03-Jan-23 19:43:25

I've had dreams like that too Onward and for a few moments after waking up have actually forgotten that we are now estranged. Remembering is like having your heart ripped out all over again.

But you're right, it is validating because it reminds us how we were once close, loved and happy.

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OnwardandUpward Tue 03-Jan-23 23:11:19

Aw so sorry Smileless, so true. Maybe they get dreams too.
I feel its hopeful that Harry admits to feeling loss. Perhaps its good for other young people to see that.

Oreo , he does have MH problems, but its his personality changes since drug use and immense hostility to me that make him feel not safe to be around. I hope some day he will become drug free and not hostile.

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