I only received contact from my sisters when they wanted a favour until one day I said no. They stopped contacting me since then and I told my parents how disheartening it is but they never listen to me.
I told my mum that I don’t love her, then I cut her off a year ago. She tried pressuring me to reconnect with her a few weeks ago which I reacted to by telling her to never darken my door again. She only ever sees the bad in me, always judging me instead of slowing down and thinking about the bigger picture.
My dad was always a background figure ever since the beginning. He just isn’t listening to me and it is getting me all tense. I rarely ever see him, so I am planning on going completely quiet on him.
I have had stages when I went on months without any of them. Being on my own in my house felt relaxing and less lonely than having them around. It enabled me to think for myself without being opposed.
Nobody ever sided with me or spoke up for me, so I reached a time when it was the last straw that broke the camel’s back.
I used to be a mummy’s boy but I self-harmed after every argument. My self-harm reached an end after I disowned my mum. That says something without the need for me to explain.
I am ready to live my life without ever speaking to any of my family ever again. I find solitude way safer than a dysfunctional family.
Early Retirement - have you, would you ?
