Mebster
First of all I am so very sorry to hear of your DGS's illness and bran injury. That is a terrible thing for those who love him have to endure, to see him in this condition.
Next I am so very sorry to hear about this awful blow you have received while you are devotedly caring for your beloved Grandson. I can see that it has been too much for you to bear. Of course you are crying. The emotional burden of seeing your grandson so ill is extremely exhausting on its own. To be criticised in this way, and so unfairly, from what you have said, when you were simply trying to make helpful suggestions, and then having your own children seem to lose confidence in you and to have gossips talking about you - well this is far more than any normal person would be able to cope with in these circumstances. I know it would knock me over. I really do feel for for you.
I would like to join with those who are urging you not to give in though. However hard it may be, however desperately distressed you feel, please continue to believe in yourself. That dear little boy needs you. Take heed of that apology from the House Manager, apologies are not easily come by so please feel glad to have it. Draw on all your strengths, for you do have many. Your little grandson knows that you do! Don't let a hiccup stop you being by his side. He needs you. After being with him day by day you will know him best and know what works for him. This will give him confidence. He needs you. Try to smile at his parents and show that you will never let their son down. The staff at the Unit will back you up. If ever you need a pair of hands to help with your grandson, they should be there. Your job is to be his Granny, best friend, comforter and the one by his side.
Please get enough rest when you need it. That is most important. Also eat well, of course.
I believe that once you get back beside your grandson you will feel better. The nature of his illness means you are needed now, because time is important. No matter what others may have said, it only matters now that you are with him. I believe all will be well. God bless you, dear Mebster, and as the days pass may you be blessed with great peace and the comfort of knowing that we are never alone and are always loved while we live here in this world and when we leave our body to go to the next, for I have experienced that departure and returned here, so I do know there is life beyond this earthly existence. Your grandson needs you to be with him while he is here. Please go to him.
Sending you much love and courage, and please, take the laughter when it comes because it does, even when you think it couldn't be possible! I shall be thinking of you and your grandson and his parents and praying for all of you. With much love, Elle x ????