I’ve just remembered the worst bit. He said one of the reasons he didn’t want to see me again was that I wasn’t a virgin and I’d lied about it
. I wonder if he ever realised what an effect his actions had had on my life and how it had shaped the way I thought about myself? Or even gave it a second thought? And, of course, it wasn’t something that I could talk about to anyone, it was like a guilty secret.Then again, I’ve probably done things that have hurt other people without realising it. It must be even more difficult now being a teenager, with social media etc. Round about the same time I met a gypsy boy on holiday and he treated me like a queen . Which at least shaped the way that I’ve ( hopefully) never judged people by their social standing. Anyways, I’ve got it off my chest now, after all these years!