dear gillybob,,,,,my heart goes out to you too,,,,,,you are brilliant try to be strong as i would suspect this might be the golden days of her life....so just make her as comfortable as you can,,,watch for pressure sores on her bottom and her elbows and her shoulder blades,,,to help her circulation we used baby oil and surgical spirit as a massage lotion,,,,but please check this out things may have changed ( that was used in hospitals,)we did this everyday,,,,,after we washed patients. i wouldnt give her any drugs unless its for pain,,,,,,small sips of water regularly,,,,yoghurts...ice cream..and soups she will like,,,,maybe lucazade.....remind yourself you are amazing and doing a great job, she will know you are there even if she doesnt show it, talk to her as a normal person...like you used to, go to social services,,,they will give advice as to where to get things like a bed pan,,or toilet stool/chair....you can get incontinent sheets from your surgery i think,,or get a prescription for them,,,,,,,you can get incontinent disposable panties too if she is in need of them,......if you can afford it you can get a night nurse maybe twice a week to give you a break,,,,you need it,,,,or ask another member of the family to take a turn,dont struggle on your own,it must be hard,,,i nursed my mum in her own home for a while,,,but she went into hospital she didnt want to go ,,,but i was exsausted,,,no family wanted to help,,,,,,,,,,she died in hospital a few weeks later,,,,,,its all so very sad,,,but life is cruel......just do the best you can,,,,and take care of yourself...keep in touch with us all and let us all know how things are,,,,,,hugs angie baby,xxxxx hug for grandma too,,,,,xxxx