How much I hate it.

Oh Phoenix - I do feel for you. Been there so many times. I take Citalopram and when things get bad I increase the dosage until I feel better. However, I never stop taking it at some level. I've decided life is too short to feel miserable and if it helps, then I'll take it. My GP seems happy with that. It will pass but maybe a change of medication could be the answer. Keep strong and good luck

I too would like to add my experience to this thread. I have always suffered from anxiety attacks from a small child but for years they were always pretty well under control, until my parents died and then I can remember going into a complete spin particularly in bed at night, this went on for quite some time, but again I managed to overcome it. Next attack was far worse, and caused by a very unpleasant dispute with our (then) neighbours. This went on for four years and during this time I was under medical supervision for severe anxiety/depression. It was just awful. something I wouldn't wish on anyone' (even those neighbours!!) The constant feeling of dread, not being able to eat properly, proper sleep became a distant memory, a truly dreadful place to be. In the end we managed to move away, although that also was very traumatic, and at last I did begin to feel better and have been ok ever since, just occasionally getting the odd twinge (that sinking feeling in the pit of your stomach) which I try to overcome by doing a deep breathing exercise as recommended by the yoga classes I went to. It does seem to work in a mild upset, but not for a more severe attack. Phoenix, I DO hope that you feel better soon and that your attack will pass quickly.

Phoenix Goodness knows you have more reason that most to feel down. I have to constantly 'pull myself back from the brink' too. Life isn't easy. I hope you are feeling much better soon.

phoenix what mrshat said is so right. I have also decided to take anti-ds for the rest of my life as life is so much better on them. Can I suggest singing in a choir? (If you don't already do so). I have found it to be one of the best things for me. Even when you don't feel like going, by the time you get home you're smiling again and looking forward positively. You are such a strong person who has been through quite a number of difficult times. I always enjoy your posts and your advice is so encouraging and helpful. I hope the sun shines for you tomorrow.

PH We all get good days and bad its pretty normal--trying to find a job, well that is something that gets everyone down, young or old tall or short fat or slim, Its life in all its entirety

Try and prepare yourself for the bad day, a fav comedy, a fav place, a fav dish usually helps, a treat for yourself.

As far as the job goes, why not try and do your own thing, what are you good at, can you turn that into a money making adventure??

Do not waite of silly people to give you a job, Make your own job. My cousin started making cushion covers and selling them online!

I hope you find your Mojo soon

how thing today?