Depression 2

mishap I'm really pleased that seeing the CPN has given you some sense of security, and hoping this will be the start of a steady and ongoing improvement for you. Wishing you a peaceful time with the family in the coming days.

That's such good news, Mishap. Having someone like the CPN looking out for you can only be an improvement.

Glad you are feeling more positive, Mishap

mishap that is promising news ((huggs)) and whatever you need.

Your CPN sounds like a good 'un - worth her weight in gold. Just knowing she's there and thinks your depression isn't likely to be a permanent problem is better than any pills.

Good to hear Mishap. Hope you will soon be feeling the benefit.

Great that you are feeling better mishap.

Bit off topic (or more than just a bit!) - I was just listening to the beautiful South African soprano Pumeza performing at the Royal Variety show, here she is in case you missed it:

m.youtube.com/?#/watch?v=JwkanykMSoc

I am joining everyone else in wishing you all the best for Christmas and the New Year Mishap and crossing my fingers that the "black dog" beats a retreat once the meds kick in.

It has been quite a year for you and surely 2015 must be a better one. Keep as strong as you can and remember all the good will coming your way from your GN pals.

So pleased to hear of some improvement for you Mishap and sincerely hope you begin to feel even more improvement with each day.

I'm glad all went well with the CPN - don't understand why you weren't referred to her earlier.

Thank you to all of you for your tremendous support - it means a lot to me at a time when my life feels as though it is sinking below the waves. Your kindnesses have been much appreciated and have lifted my spirits countless times.

I hope that everyone has a good Christmas in their own different ways.

Thank you for the link to Pumeza Grannyk - you might also like to google Njabulo Madlala, whose story is very similar, and who has a sublime voice. I have chosen him to book for a big community choirs event I was organising for August next year, although I am not now sure of how much I will be able to be involved. He has the loveliest of voices and he is a delightful person.

Not a good morning after a reasonable day yesterday. Gritting my teeth here and trying to keep going. Have to go over to DD's soon for their Christmas Eve lunch with all the family. I have to do it, and I do so want to be there; but the dreadful nausea and sinking desperation are plaguing me this morning. I do not want to be a blight on the proceedings. It is a real b****r - I cannot wait for it all to stop. One day.

I don't know what else to say or do but give you a big (((hug))) Mishap. Maybe the visit will lift your spirits - I do hope so!

HI mishap sorry you've had a bad day. I'll look up Njabula (-jabula means "happy").

I did it - it was lovely to see the little ones and all my DDs even though I was feeling truly grim. We have come home early but will see them all again tomorrow and I just have to hope that I will be feeling a bit better then. Not every day is as bad as this.

Happy Christmas to all.

Well done for going, a small step in the right direction Mishap!
Do hope you have a good Christmas (((hugs))) x

Hope you have a better day tomorrow Mishap, and enjoy your family Christmas xx

mishap I hope your feeling a little better, well enough to be able to enjoy Christmas a little.

Thank you so much - it is comforting to have people walking alongside me in this battle.

Great that you went, Mishap. Another achievement to notch up!

Mishap, please don't feel bad about posting sad and hopeless thoughts and feelings. I have done so many times in the past and only had compassion and support from Gransnetters and it really, really helps - maybe doesn't alter the depression but it relieves the feeling of not knowing where to turn to unburden yourself. It's essential to do that, so please don't stop sharing. Someone on here will have been in a similar place, and I can relate to your feelings even if the circumstances are different.
You deserve nothing but kindness and compassion but you also need to give that to yourself and allow yourself to feel this way for the time being, instead of trying to fight it (like baling the sea out with a sieve!). Accept that this is how it is for now, and that you are doing your best. i don't mean 'give in', and of course you want to find medication which helps, but don't wear yourself out trying to change your feelings. Stop fighting, just for a while.
I hope the horrible darkness eases for you soon. I am sure it will lift, in time, but for now, keep posting and big hugs to you from one who also suffers.

Thank you.

We are all rooting for you!

Well done Mishap you will treasure the time spent with you DGC. I do hope that you have a happy Christmas Day. A few weeks ago I was really struggling and didn't think I would be able to feel more positive but things did pick up and I wish the same for you too. As Galen said we are all rooting for you. Those who have been in the same place know how you feel and ((huggs))

Mishap, I'm not saying much, if anything, but I am walking beside you all the way and wishing you well, strength and positivity. It is a tough road, and you are having a tougher one than most. Hang on in there and have a happy and hopefully healthy Christmas day. Here's hoping 2015 will bring better things for you. , hugs and