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Mishap Tue 16-Dec-14 17:01:57

I just do not know what to do. I have got so much worse and just spend my time sitting about sobbing. There is no fleeting moment day or night when I feel well. I just do not know what I can do.

I tried the sertraline but became weepy and agitated and very nauseous, so I had to stop it. The beta blocker is stopping the heart arrhythmia but I fear might be part of the reason for my depression getting so much worse. I have decided to try going back on the dosulepin that I used to take for my migraine - it is an anti-depressant too and I just have to hope it will mix OK with the beta-blocker. My GP is away at the moment and I don't want to talk with his partner as he is so gung-ho - I really feel I could not cope with him. But I cannot do nothing.

I feel completely desperate - this illness is just taking my life away and I can see no end to it. I was having good days and bad, but now it is all bad and I do not know what to do.

If anyone else has been in this situation and has even a glimmer of hope to offer me I would be so grateful.

Agus Wed 24-Dec-14 22:07:40

Every step of the way with you Mishap

Hope you will be feeling stronger tomorrow to spend a lovely day with your family and all the best for a much healthier 2015 tchsmile

NfkDumpling Thu 25-Dec-14 08:57:37

(((Hugs))) and best wishes for a good day for you. wine - if you're allowed one with your pills.

Lona Thu 25-Dec-14 09:53:37

Thinking of you Mishap, hope it's going to be a good day for you tchsmile

MiniMouse Thu 25-Dec-14 11:59:35

Hope the sun's shining for you today Mishap tchsmile

Mishap Thu 25-Dec-14 20:22:50

Thank you for your kind thoughts. We are just back from my DD's house. All the girls and the GC were there and they all had a lively time. I have managed to keep it together all day, which is a huge relief. The mornings and evenings are usually the worst, so we went over at lunchtime and have just come back - we were there when I was at my best and I did not spoil the day for anyone with my weepiness - which is what I had been worrying about.

So - a good day with my lovely kind family. The children loved their presents and I was given some wonderful thoughtful gifts. I am a lucky lady. All I have to do is get well and start to play my usual role in the family. Fingers crossed for the new year.

I hope everyone on Gnet has had/is having a wonderful Christmas.

Crafting Thu 25-Dec-14 21:23:58

Well done Mishap glad you had a good time with your family flowers

Agus Thu 25-Dec-14 21:32:40

So pleased to,hear you enjoyed your day Mishap

We had a lovely day with DD1 and our two lively GDs who had Mummy up at 6am. By 7.30pm all three were flagging and left for home at 8pm.

All tidied up now and ready to settle down to Downton whenever it is finished recording.

MariClaire Fri 26-Dec-14 02:20:53

Good for you Mishap! You made it through a very difficult day. I hope your new regimen turns the light back on soon. (Beta blockers threw me into an awful hole but I came back after a year of misdiagnosis and unnecessary mental health treatment. I thought I had lost my mind! I was lucky to recover completely and in a few months after a simple change to calcium blockers and my usual anti depressant).

We are all here for you. Hang in there, you WILL be better. Hugs!

loopylou Fri 26-Dec-14 09:35:18

Really good to hear Mishap, especially when you were full of trepidation, well done!
Lovely that you were spoiled too, you certainly deserve it. tchsmile

NfkDumpling Fri 26-Dec-14 12:28:37

Yay!

Lona Fri 26-Dec-14 12:30:56

Keep smiling Mishap tchsmile xx

MiniMouse Fri 26-Dec-14 21:54:02

Glad to hear you had a good time Mishap tchsmile

etheltbags1 Fri 26-Dec-14 22:57:43

Glad your ok mishap and had a lovely day
x

Nelliemoser Fri 26-Dec-14 23:08:01

Well done Mishap see this good day as a bit of progress. Think that you have managed this family gathering and that you can do it again even if you do have another difficult day or two on the way. (((hugs)))

Mishap Fri 02-Jan-15 21:12:37

For the last week there have been signs of progress with a reasonably good day followed by others that I would rather forget. But I wanted (with some trepidation) to report back that for the first time in 14 weeks I have had 2 good days in a row; and that today I went out to lunch with 2 of my DDs and their children, and all went well.

I hardly dare say this, and feel I might be tempting fate - but I do seem to be getting somewhere at long last. I feel a bit dopey at times, as I get used to the treatment, but my OH says "better sleepy than weepy" - he is right of course.

Your support has been so crucial to me - and I ask now that you keep your fingers - and anything else - crossed for me!

pompa Fri 02-Jan-15 21:19:40

That's great to hear Mishap, about time you had some good days.

NfkDumpling Fri 02-Jan-15 21:27:47

Wow, Mishap you must be psychic. I was just wondering about half an hour ago how you were getting on!

Brilliant! Hopefully the new year and returning sun is helping the pills work their magic!

Agus Fri 02-Jan-15 21:29:26

Still have everything crossed for you Mishap. I do detect a little spring in your step which I sincerely hope turns into a strong stride very soon. Really hope also that you have turned that blessed corner at last.

kittylester Fri 02-Jan-15 21:37:36

I've noticed you on more of the other threads Mishap and hoped you were feeling a little better. I've got everything crossed for you. flowers

MiniMouse Fri 02-Jan-15 21:47:24

That's good Mishap. I'd noticed you've been posting on other threads, so hoped it meant you were feeling a bit better smile

bikergran Fri 02-Jan-15 22:03:05

Mishap glad that you sound like you have taken a tiny step forward smile

Mishap Fri 02-Jan-15 22:03:52

Good to hear from you all and thanks for your good wishes - very appreciated as I am sure you know.

Anne58 Sat 03-Jan-15 01:01:51

Much love to you, and good to hear that you are having some good days!

I am dreading Sunday and Monday, but know that I just have to metaphorically gird my loins and get through it. Seeing GP again on Tuesday.

Maggiemaybe Sat 03-Jan-15 01:30:22

flowers to you, Mishap. Hoping the New Year is good to you and that your health continues to improve.

loopylou Sat 03-Jan-15 05:32:28

That's so good to hear Mishap, everything firmly crossed for you! X