My husband and I both gave up Dec 2017 he with the help of champix, I started on the tablets but felt ill! And disorientated,so decided on willpower alone, it was hard, but every day that passed was an achievement after smoking for 40 years, be it lightly but as a past nurse I know it's not how many you smoke, but how long! It is a bereavement and at times I wanted to smoke, but fortunately now if I smell ciggarettes it makes me feel nauseous and I would be actually frightened of smoking now, keep it up and good luck.