Black dog gang

I am seeing the oncologist next Tuesday so may know more then. I felt better when I was seeing someone regularly as they did not seem too concerned so I wasn't but because of Easter I haven't seen anyone for a while.

dragonfly it must be a lonely place you are in , is there anyone in the medical world you can talk to? We all need hope , even a glimmer of hope is something to hold onto .

Annie I understand the lack of control. I like to have everything under my control.

Annie it is definitely reactive depression. I have no peace of mind any more. Nobody understands quite what it is like. I have to be cheerful for those around me as it would not help me if they were worried and depressed also. I am scared and can see no end in sight.

henetha yes the Wye is beautiful. This is a small country but we certaintly have many rivers, lakes and mountains ,

dragonfly you are depressed ? Do you think it’s reactive depression?

Joce if only you could be comfortable with a dog , you love dogs so it’s a deep fear of them ? A phobia ?

My depression is caused by lack of control, not being physically able to do things I use to do, have always been able to ‘do my own thing ‘, had to, but not now.

Aww bless you Annie, is it haveing work done that’s upseting for you, I know it does me.. it will be worth it when it’s done Annie. I love dogs, but I am scared of them, more so if I don’t know them.. this is one of the reasons I can’t go out walking on my own.. well one of many but yes I really would like to have a dog to walk with, no way than can ever happen I don’t think..hope it all goes well with you new fence Annie .

Feeling crappy this morning - like what is the point?

The River Wye is beautiful, Anniebach. I spent a lot of time around there back in my camper-van days.
I hope your day goes well.

Good morning Joce and everyone x

Sorry you had a bad night Joce. I was awake for quite a while, ulcer was bouncing .

Garden fencing being replaced today, difficult with two dogs!

Younger granddaughter coming so she will walk them

Be back here with you later x

Morning all hope you have all had a better night than me ..I am up, just don’t know what to do with my self. Really bad night and feels like a worse morning please please go away... hope you are feeling better today Annie. It will pass

dragon, an hour or two of positive is good going, all things considered.

Why do I feel worse as the day goes on?
Is it because I am dreading the night or because I am getting tired?
I was quite positive this morning but that is wearing off now.

Joce good news, so happy for you x

nanny good you feel lighter today , hope you will have a talk with your GP , hold onto the thought of how you felt going for a stroll x

Joce that’s great!

Hi all thank you all for you messages, it good news today, there has been a big improvement in my friend so much so she is being move of the HDU to a normal ward. I am so pleased it’s just the best news,

joce i hope your friend continues to improve x
lily65 and dragonfly 46 thank you for my messages xx

dawn 22 i think i;ll be dragged over life finishing line by someone else lol.
granmainoz thank you very much x
dragonfly4 and anniebach thank you xxx

Ive been out with dogs today. we had a lovely stroll around some lakes, I am actually feeling not to bad right now xx

Joce hope you do have good news about your friend.

I will dragonfly, I miss my sisters so much , that started me off this morning, one was married on a Easter Monday and I was remembering it snowed , 52 years ago. !

Joce so sorry to hear about your friend. I do hope there is some improvement today.

Annie the bank holiday is nearly over so maybe you will feel a little better then. I hope so.

Hi Annie yes like your self no very good today but go to keep going Annie.. I have had plenty of company sometime nothing helps does it Annie. My friend of 60 years is very ill in high dependency unit been there for 2week now and I am so worried about her.. we have seen a small improvement, hope will get some good new today.

I like it henetha, so the days spent canoeing on the river Wye wasn’t wasted, must find my paddle ?

Thank you x

I know some might find these lines very trite, but I've always found they help a little.

When the world looks big and you feel small
And you don't seem to have any friends at all,
Keep going, and paddle your own canoe,
This is the only thing to do,
And though the river is deep and wide
In the end you'll get to the other side.

Hi Joce, I am struggling this morning , probably because the bank holiday was difficult. It will pass.

How are you ?

Hi all, how’s every one today? Morning Annie. Hope every one is plodding on. Thinking of you nanny.. I like that word it’s nice and steady (plodding) onwards and up ?

Hi all, how’s is every one today? Morning Annie, Hope every one is plodding on.. thinking of you nanny.. I like that word it’s nice and steady (plodding) onwards and up ?