Black dog gang

It is like being in the bottom of a well and yes we need rungs but we also need hands to stretch out to us

to continue the analogy, grab those hands.

Yes Lily but not forgetting depression can make us vulnerable?

absolutely.

Also, one can become guarded - And fearful - Vulnerability leaves one wide open - Fear keeps one completely closed -

I think its important for one's own hands to be free to reach for the rungs - And while climbing apply whatever knowledge one has .. wisely ..

Consider the story of John All -

Easter Day is drawing to a close. I hope there was some lightness in the day for everyone x

I had a FaceTime call from my DG and discovered that my DS and DD spent the weekend together. It is rare that they do this so I was really pleased.

That’s nice Dragonfly , I was down on Friday because my grandchildren were spending the weekend together in Cornwall and I couldn’t enjoy the weekend ŵith them, more so because they are at the coast. I have received photographs of the coves and beaches they are exploring, lovely surprise

I am soooo depressed right now.. to the point where i am seriously considering ending my life. I have cried every day for 22 days. i am clinging on by mental fingertips. why havent i done it? because i love my kids and GD so much. but god its so hard to hang on.

nanny2507, please make an appointment to see your GP as soon as possible. I hope you have a sympathetic doctor who will listen to how you are feeling. I know taking tablets isn’t an answer to your deep rooted depression, but it is a start and perhaps your GP can offer what help there may be in your area. Take each hour as it comes. Do let us know how you are since posting your message.

nanny do you know why you are so depressed? Please seek help. Ring the Samaritans and go and see your GP. They can help you. You mustn’t think of leaving your DC and DG. Talk to us - we are here day and night.

Nanny2507 please ask for some support from your doctor or The Samaritans who will be so willing to assist you.

i have resisted going to my GP i have to call on the day for an emergency appt as no bookable ones...i then get to the morning and i feel its not important enough to need an emergency appt. I already take duloxitine 60mg and yes i know the reason i am like this..and to some its a really pathetic reason but to me its real. but i feel the GP will laugh me out of his office. Thank you for your kind words and i,m sure i will be fine xx

nanny, please get help quickly, you can hang on , you have children and granddaughter, your depression is hell but grief is worse.

Ring the Samaritans , if your local branch is busy ring

116 123 please.

We are here for you , you will come through this x

If something is making you depressed it is important and not pathetic x

although i am hanging on by mental fingertips i will not let go. I have my dogs and i will go walking tomorrow things will be clearer i,m sure xx

Walking is good and walking with dogs is great. Speak to us when you want / need to x

thank you all xx

Remember , we are here x

Get a good night's sleep and get through tomorrow. First thing Tuesday get on the phone and see the GP. They are the experts, they have seen it all and heard it all before .

PLEASE.

i will lily65 xx

nanny2507I have been where you are. I too would not give in because of children and GC but the terrible feeling and urge was still there and the pain was almost unbearable. I just want to say you are worthy of help and support even if you don't believe it. Please see your GP.
Best wishes to all who live in the shadow of that damn black dog.
Thinking of you all. It's such a struggle

Hi Nanny 2507
You can and will come out the other side of this as l really hope we all do. I always think that the objective of life is to get there. Some people will spring easily over the finishing line and others may limp over. But it does not matter how we get there once we do get there, albeit by limping over. We are not all strong as horses and Life has to be circumvented in different ways as per our circumstances. I always think there are currently people in the UK today with terrible suffering and this does help me to count my blessings. None of this is easy stuff to implement but we do have to try to flick a switch.

If you can do keep in touch here because it is a caring Community.
Hope this helps Nanny.
Take care from Dawn

Hope you are feeling a little better this morning Nanny. Remember we are all here for you xxx

Thinking of you nanny and all here x