Morning, everyone.
This is just a quick post as a sequel to my OP of I need help!
Last night I went to a local AA meeting. Everyone was so welcoming, that my nerves soon disappeared and I felt like I was with friends.
The man in charge told me to just listen to stories, not to compare but to see if I could identify. I learned so much in those 90 minutes.
1) I don't have to drink. Just because it's Friday, Saturday, Wimbledon's on or whatever, I don't have to drink.
2) I have a problem with alcohol because the first is never enough. I have to carry on. It doesn't relax me or make me happy. In fact, it does the opposite. Talk about a Lightbulb moment. It's not my friend, and it never was.
3) Not only is it an illness, but it's a progressive one - it will only get worse, not better.
I did learn so much more, but wanted to keep this relatively short. I am aware that the road ahead may be challenging at times, but thanks to you and your encouraging, honest and non judgmental posts, I am feeling optimistic.
I will take one day at a time. For today I will not drink.
I will get back to you all in a few weeks.
Thanks again - you are all amazing x
