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SalsaQueen what a lovely post to read..

Annie how are you today?

BlueSky I overreact with everything think you could be right with the anxiety...

Hope everyone else is ok today

Those of you who have mentioned anxiety - mine has been through the roof recently, and I find I over-think everything (what if this happened, why did that person say that, what did he/she mean by that, what if I'm late/have a car crash, etc., etc.

Same here SalsaQueen....

annie I have had the same thing happen with messages arriving hours after being sent. In my case it was that my son had cut his thumb badly and was in hospital. By the time the message got through he was ok. I can understand your concern.
bluesky and salsa it’s such a burden living this way isn’t it. The overactive imagination which always assumes the worst.
I think there are people out there who don’t do this. Wish we could be like them ?

Whatifery ? We all live with it don’t we ?

Those who do, anyone want to say if it was the same in childhood ?

As a child I had what I now know to be OCD. To a child is a horrible feeling, I think a lot of my problems stem from that.

BlueSky it must have been a horrible feeling for a child and I very much doubt it was understood or even talked about .

If I may ask , no matter if you don’t wish to say , did you overcome it and did you have help ?

Annie I can say nowadays I've mostly overcome the OCD, without any help, occasionally it still tries to push through, but mostly I can control it. I don't think it was even recognised 60 years ago, I just realised what it was when I was middle aged by reading about it. It has been replaced by anxiety and occasionally depression. Thanks for your concern.

BlueSky OCD is a way to protect oneself , it is anxiety , for me a form of OCD since my daughter died , I live alone so csn please myself , but I do everything to the clock, go to bed, get
up , I am going to break it come late spring, well going to try ,
it doesn’t affect my days but I feel ruled by the clock, and I don’t like being ruled !

Thank you for sharing x very brave So. ?

I think I had a kind of OCD with praying when I was young. I used to pray everything 3 times over. Reading the bible more and understanding a bit more I have overcome this. Must have driven God mad with my ramblings. Good job he is patient with us. I have always been an anxious person since childhood. I still worry a lot. It would be nice to have a more positive outlook but I guess I won’t change now.
Sleep well all x

Hi all. x

Doodle numbers seem so important to those with OCD, I am sure God understood x

Annie I didn’t realise but I do that, every thing by the clock wow with you saying that I had never give it a thought I do.. I will have to change that..
I also had a thing about cleaning when my children were baby’s to the point of obsessive all day everyday cleaning anything and everything.. I would iron every thing as well in my head that killed any germs even socks needed ironing..
I don’t do that now still funny with some things but not all..

Joce. OCD again , your thing about the clock, if I may ask?
does it extends to getting up, going to bed ? You don’t live
alone so do you have to ignore the clock if your husband wants to do something at a different time ?

I tell myself it’s habit , but it isn’t for me

I remember being about 8, and doing certain little rituals. For example, if I had an itch on my left ear, I'd have to scratch my other ear too. If I was interrupted in my little rituals, I'd feel the need to start it all over again. I must have had depression/anxiety from a young age, I think. I remember at 8, 9, 10, that on Sunday evenings we'd, as a family, watch The London Palladium programme on tv and when it finished, I was desperately sad (and crying to myself) because I knew it was school the next day and the family would all be going their separate ways for the day. I still get like that now, at times.

salsaqueen that’s exactly the same as me except in my case it was Robin Hood instead of the London Palladium. If I hear the theme tune to Robin Hood now it makes me really miserable ?

Hi all. The worst part of OCD when I was a child was the intrusive toughts, and the rituals I felt I had to follow or something bad was going to happen to my mum and dad. Sound crazy now but it did spoil my childhood and I feel for kids who might be feeling this way and don't know what to do about it except suffer!

I hope I haven’t caused you distress .

It does seem the root cause is keeping loved ones safe and perhaps a fear of separation. The world can be a scary place
for a child.

My childhood was without fear, I was brought up in a Welsh
Mining village , a very large extended family, one aunt the district nurse, another the local midwife, another deputy head
at the school which was only 8 doors from our house. The teachers is school were Sunday school teachers too, an uncle
the village policeman.

I truly thought it was the safest place on earth. 1966 took that from me , such shock , I was prescribed sleeping pills, Valium,
and anti depressants!

All these years on I have been having counselling for PTS .

I developed OCD when my darling daughter died, thanks to
all for sharing I now know I keep to time because I think it will
keep everyone safe , it isn’t logical, if I get up earlier it would
be the same time as I received the phone call to tell me she was dead. So I stay in bed until after 9.00am, even if I wake at
7.00.

I did speak of the telephone engineer wanting to come early,
I couldn’t / wouldn’t get up earlier even if it meant still no
house phone and internet playing up.

You my friends came through your OCD, it is anxiety so our
anxiety now can be worked on , yes ?

How magic your childhood in Wales sounds Annie! It does help talking about things and you could be a counsellor Annie! Good night all.

Your childhood sounds lovely annie. You describe it so well.
I am not sure I have progressed that much with my OCD as it is mainly related to worry about family. I don’t count my prayers as I used to but I still feel I must pray for them every day...several times a day. I do pray for others too especially children. You are right annie it is anxiety/worry. We must all try to get through together. Sleep well all x

Yes Annie it is getting up and going to bed.. like yourself I can’t get out of bed before 8.30 don’t know why just do, same time in the morning for the toilet and that really upsets me if I have to get up at a different time to go. Again I don’t know why.. you ask about my husband yes I do different times if I have to but again find it so hard to do, I try and work round my times. I don’t know about anyone else but when the clock alter that really messes with my head.

Well, all this talk of OCD has made me think. I have changed on of my ‘habits’ today. Without realising I found that I had made a ritual of something and I decided to stop. A bit difficult but in the end I decided to give it a go and am still here to tell the tale so the world did not end ?
Sleep well all x

Hi all x

Joce. My bedside radio/clock is 4 minutes slow, so what’s
4 minutes ? , I know but if it reads 9.00 it’s 8.56 , no problem?
ordering a new radio/clock !

Doodle fantastic, I was troubled I had asked about OCD,
not now, I understand how hard it was for you to stop a ritual
you did , please , please realise that was a huge step ? x

Morning all hope every one has a good day..

Thanks annie. I had many OCD habits as a child which I don’t seem to do these days so perhaps, difficult as it is, it’s a matter of saying no to that niggly thing inside which tells us the world will end if we stop. Can’t stop the worrying but perhaps I can stop a bit of the obsessiveness. Have a good day all. Pop back later.

Hi all x

More on OCD, we have OCD because we believe it will control
our fears and anxiety .

When we are having an anxiety attack or when we fear something we feel out of control , we develop OCD because we feel we are taking control , any thoughts on this ?