Just need a handhold & support

While I really feel for you and what you have gone through I think you need to take a deep breath itsawelshthing, you have got results from your dr and they have decided to take it further, you have vit b and vit d that have shown severely deficient result, that will be sorted! You get your results very soon so that’s good! How you think can affect your body immensely so when you are stressing you aren’t helping the situation, as I’m reading your posts I can tell you are getting yourself wound up, bless your heart( I don’t mean that in a patronising way either) you are focusing on there being something sinister, please please try and be positive, great idea about trying to get hold of some dvds or self help books on anxiety to try and calm your mind! Will be thinking of you on Saturday love, sending you best wishes, take care x

Hi all. Thank you for your lovely messages. Just want to msg and say I have a telephone consultation next Saturday. I received a letter saying my results was ready and to book an appointment with my consultant, so I did and the next available appt was next Saturday. I sort of hope that means I don't have anything sinister. They would've told me by now if it was worrisome wouldn't they? I got 1 more week to go and I am so worried.

Whiff - some of the books have been available on ebay and amazon as Claire Weeks books are from 1980s . There used to be a Claire Weeks website but not sure if it still runing. Your local library may also have them. Hope your nephew finds them beneficial.

Pixieboots sorry I misunderstood. I have a nephew who has panic acts and suffers from anxiety. I will tell him about the books you recommend. Hopefully they will help him he is only 33 and has suffered since his teens.

Whiff, I wasnt making reference to your post - apolgies that you thought it was.

I didn't say Primrose should snap out of it. I say I give myself a talking to and snap myself out of it. It's my way with getting on with my life. I know it's not easy , it's not easy for me but I can't live with what if's . To much has happened in my life. With my ill health and loved ones dieing I make the best of everyday. None of us know how long we have got and even if we did there's nothing we can do about. So make the best of the life we have got now.

For self help with panic attacks and worrying there are two excellent books by Sue Breton called Dont Panic and Why Worry. For anxiety on a more geneal level Dr Claire Weeks books, dvd and cassettes/cds are excellent. Anxity can cause psychosomatic but nonetheless real physical symptoms as well as the turmoil of the emotional symptoms which are so difficult to understand by someone who hasnt personally experienced them or supported someone experiencing them. Being able to 'pull yourself together' or 'snap out of it' sounds so simple but isnt that easy. Be kind to yourself ?

Primrose73 it's hard but the past is the past. It's done with no point in worrying about it. Worrying won't alter anything that has happened. You need to live for the present and future.

I don't know what your family set up is. Or what you are coping with that you can't leave the past alone.

If you have read this thread you know what I have been though and others here.

Living in the past means you are not enjoying your life now. After my husband died I had to make a new present and future. My life with him was at an end. It's hard making a new present and future. Especially as we had made plans what we wanted to do with our lives as we got older.

Living in the past is not living. I struggle everyday with his loss plus health problems. But I will not stop them from living my life. I have to much I enjoy doing, family and friends who care and love me and who I care for and love.

If this last year has taught us anything life is short and none of us know how long we have got. So live life to the full.

Take joy in the little things birds in the garden, having a chat with a friend etc.

If I get down I give myself a talking to and snap myself out of it. It's not easy but anything worth doing isn't easy.

Without knowing why you are living in the past really can't help more.

I live in the past and just cannot leave past problems behind me, cannot
move forward.Any advice appreciated.

Primrose73. What is a ND in my head?

Hope you can soon get your mind put at rest with a diagnosis. Just one little tip though; don't cut out wheat from your diet, by doing so you may negate a coeliac test or gluten intolerance. Just something my son was told when he was having tests for his digestive disorders. Having a very bad bout of gastric illness is very disabling, and it takes your gut a while to get the balance of digestive flora back to normal. Sadly, ( as with my son) anxiety about your symptoms can cause the symptoms to worsen.

Need advice how do I stop living in the past a ND inmy head,I am driving myself mad.

I think you need to contact your GP and tell them how stressed you are and talk it through with them. Anxiety can cause upset to your gut too.

Really must read what I write properly. Should have been. Worst thing that could ever happen to me was him dieing . Not during.?

Itsawelshthing what you are feeling is normal. Radiographers are highly skilled professionals. And they do thousands of scans a year. So they have a wealth of experience if something doesn't look right they wouldn't have said anything. They would have waited for the consultant.

It's hard waiting for results but the tests are done now that's the main thing. It's out of your hands. It's not easy but try and not to worry about what if.

Whatever it is you as a family will face it together. You are stronger than you think. You are young and have a family who need you. I know you are frightened and worried but so must your family. Over the years I felt like running away and hiding. But you can't . No one knows what life will throw at us next. Make the best of every day and talk to your husband out your fears. You may find he is frightened to. Your family are your strength and because of them you will get through this.

Our thoughts always go to the worst case scenario. The first year I got ill my main fear was that children would be taken from me because I was a bad mother because I was ill. My husband told me I was being stupid I was a wonderful mom . I was so frightened that first year not knowing why or what was wrong with me. But 33 years later I am still here. Still no name for my neurological condition but it doesn't matter . It's just part of me. Other things that are wrong well just waiting to speak to consultants and then hopefully get tests done.

After my husband died I tend not to worry about what ifs as there is no point . Worst thing that could ever happen to me was him during. Everything else I learn to cope with. Not easy but life is precious and we must make every day count.

I hope you get your results soon. And they will put your mind at rest. In the meantime try not to worry and concentrate on your family they need you and you need them. ?

Hi everyone. I has the ct scan, all went ok. They said it'll take a few weeks for the results so I'm in a bit of a mess. I said to the radiographer doing my scan what if it is serious though like cancer? She said that she cannot diagnose but she and her colleague who did the scan didn't see any abnormalities or anything that popped out at them, but see what the consultant says when he interprets the results... Would radiographers who can only perform scans, know if something is wrong? I am still very unsettled by it all. Its causing me so much stress. I'm starting to lose focus, I keep on making mistakes at home, at work, I cannot keep my cool when my son is being naughty, I'm snapping at my husband all the time. I just feel like running away from it all

itsaweshthing I’m reaching out to hold your hand you poor thing. What a turmoil you’re in. Try to relax a little by holding your breath for up to 8 seconds then let it out through your mouth nice and slowly do these exercises for a few minutes every day. I promise you this really helps reduce stress.

As someone who has had bowel cancer I do not believe your symptoms are cancer. Sounds more like a severe gastro intestinal infection.
Years ago when there was a warning from Cadbury's, about a serious contamination, I developed a dreadful infection from eating a chocolate flake and was ill for weeks.

After severe illness, it is not unusual to feel depressed.
By the sound of it, many of your fears have been groundless.
Avoid being stressed. Stress does terrible things to the body and mind.
Take whatever pleasures come your way Remember, there are many far worse off than you, so enjoy what you have.
Food, shelter and a family. Enjoy all of them!

Itsawelshthing just wanted to say that being a fellow HA sufferer I know where you are coming from. As I was saying on another thread we must go ahead see a doctor, do whatever they suggests and then wait for the results. Easier said than done but that’s the only way. This way you ease your anxiety and any problem can be dealt with.

Excuse typos! That "U" should be "I" tutt x

Itsawelshthing,I hope you are feeling a little more settled after a horrible time for you.I have terrible IBS,and have had several ulcers at quite a youngish age.Your gastro bug sounds horrendous and has possibly upset your hole digestive system.My bowels can often be yellow,or just bile too.Ive tried to find out what foods are the worst offenders.I can't eat most cereals now and too much milk gives me issues too.When I had all my tests I'd hoped they would find something that could be treated and make it stop..but they found nothing apart from non cancerous Polyps and Diverticulitis.Also worrying,being stressed makes it all so much worse,I'm not kidding and I know how worrying is hard to stop,but you need to find something that calms you.Music,a walk,yoga,art just something that distracts you.Stress makes your heart pound and speeds up the metabolism.U used to have to dash to the bathroom up to 30 times a day! I have alot of Arthritis and skin issues and fortunately my Rheumatologist has been the most sympathetic and put me on a medication that helps my joints but has helped my IBS massively.I hope you get some answers and help.I also saw a dietician,and kept food diaries that helped see if any patterns came to light.It is an awful,embarrassing and mostly Taboo subject for people to talk about but I really empathise with you.Take care and keep us posted

I don’t know you....but I would guess you had a severe dose of gastroenteritis. This can last several weeks. I had it when I was 12. I lost two stone! My uniform didn’t fit me whenI went back to school!
I’ve also nursed people with it. It’s debilitating, and many nutrients are lost through the vomit and diarrhoea. Hence the need to replace them.
Now...it sounds like you’re anxious ( understandably). This will give rise to similar feelings of nausea/ sickness. The panic attack is as a result of this.
Please try to relax. Nothing serious has been found in your tests. You will take a while to put the weight back on. Just take each day as it comes. You’re a young woman who had a nasty bug. It happens.
Focus on your son, and don’t try to rush it.
Take care ?

Not trying to downplay your concerns, but you do sound very much like you have a bad bout of hypochondria. Now, this is a horrible condition in itself, but may be better treated with something like CBT than scans, etc.
With all your tests coming back clear, this seems to be the only reason you are getting yourself into such a state of anxiety.
Your weight loss obviously started when you went through a bad bout of D&V - a bug you picked up from your young son. Then is being continued by your own anxiety.
Do you have a job?
Perhaps you need to talk to your GP about your anxiety and see what referrals for that can be made.

Thank you everyone. I am OK about it now I am keeping busy with decorating and sorting the house out. I just hope that there's nothing sinister and something that is curable or at least, treatable. I do get panic attacks about what they'll find out but I have to do it because no matter what I think, the problem will not go away. X