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Doodle I don’t know about you but I do like doing trousers one of the easy garments I thin if they are elastic waistband..
Footstool is the first I have done enjoyed doing it but it sure made my hands hurt...
We need Annie she keeps us all going with her love and wisdom it certainly is not the same when she is not around..
Hurry back our friend...
Hope everyone has a peaceful nights sleep..
Sending Annie love and prayers x

Hello Scaredycat no, not been for a walk today. We went to a garden centre miles away to look for some small bushes. The journey was really bad with traffic jams and road works so we’re too tired when we got home.
I wouldn’t say I had a gleaming kitchen just that it doesn’t have quite so many crumbs on the floor now ?
Sleep well all x

Hello gang
Joce- yes it is quiet isn’t it! Maybe everyone has been busy and feeling a bit tired tonight. Can’t believe your little GS is already 9 months old. Glad you can get out with him for walks it’s lovely seeing the world through their eyes - everything is new and exciting. Enjoy every minute.
Nonnie- what makes our minds click into gear as soon as we wake up . It’s like the thoughts are queuing up waiting to fly out the minute our eyes are open!!
How lovely of you and your DH to start volunteer work . It’s great you have got something you are both interested in. I,m sure whatever it is you will get much satisfaction from it as well as helping people in need.
Doodle- I expect your kitchen is gleaming - you won’t want to make any mess now!! Have you had a walk today?
Annie- I hope you,re OK - miss you.
Sleep well allxx

Yes it is quiet Joce we are missing Annie, it’s not the same without her. Hope she’s posting again soon.
9 months, that’s amazing. I bet he’s a real character now,
Covering a footstool in leather is no mean feat. How clever.
I have just received a delivery today of more fabric to make some more lightweight trousers,. I hope Annie is ok too.
Nonnie I know this will sound strange but I have a small stuffed toy dog that lays flat on my stomach. I find stroking the fur on its legs, ears and tail are enough to distract me from thinking too much and it helps me sleep. I don’t know why but it does. I don’t use it every night but if I have a night when I find it hard to get to sleep then I use it the following night. It always seems to help.
I did clean the kitchen yesterday and it made me realise how unfit I am. I get exhausted so quickly and have to take so many breaks. I have never had a cleaner in my life but am wondering if I ought to consider having one every 6 months to do a big clean.
That’s good to do some volunteering. What are you going to be doing?
I’m here Joce. Exhausted but here ?

Evening all, wondering if everyone doing ok..
it’s very quiet.

Scardycat I do wonder if overcoming these things when we are younger makes us stronger in the longer term? I do hope that works for your DGD. Never been sure if it has worked for me but can't change the past.

Doodle it takes me a while to get to sleep but I do, it's all the times I wake up and start thinking. Just doesn't stop.

I'm thinking how good you will feel when you complete your big kitchen clean. I need to do the oven but so far have put it off.

Joce we did the long walk yesterday too, been a while since we did this particular one. Restricted by DH's knees though.

9 months, what a wonderful age. Just discovering how well they can communicate and copy and any day now you will get the big toddler laugh, unless you already have it.

DH and I have taken a big step, we have taken on some voluntary work, quite a big commitment but something we share an interest in. Time to give back and help others

Doodle I thought there was something wrong with mi iPad, with there being no one around today...
He’s is 9 months now time go so fast,
I hope your DGS gets on ok with the jab.
I have been recovering a foot stool with leather it’s a first for me, working with it, my machine did a lovely job of sewing it has well, I didn’t expect it to do such a good job the leather is very thick...
It’s given me something to occupy my mind I need it at the minute..
I hope Annie is ok...
Sleep well all good night ?

joce that’s nice I expect he loves having your undivided attention. How old is he now?
My DGS is due his COVID jab today. Hope he gets on ok.
I have spent most of the day cleaning the kitchen. I can only do it in short bursts and then I need a sit down.
romroot I too hope you are getting on ok.
Annie I hope it is your iPad that is keeping your from GN and that nothing is wrong.
Take care dear gang and hope you all sleep well x

Morning all...
Annie hope you get your iPad up and running we miss you....

Doodle I took me grandson for a long walk, so his mum could do some studying.. same thing today if the rain holds off...

Scaredycat our grandkids are a blessing they really cheer me up, pleased your GGS is doing well.

Romroot praying you are still doing ok...

Nonnie good morning to you..

Hope we all have a good day keep plodding on everyone ?

Scaredycat I’m glad your DGD is coping. Sounds like your GGS could cheer anyone up ?
Joce been ok today. Not done much. Long walk and lots of emails to catch up on. How about you?
Nonnie I usually stay awake for a while with my mind racing before I drop off to sleep. On the other hand DH goes to sleep quite quickly then wakes up after an hour or so with restless leg syndrome. What a pair we are.
I try hard not to think about things when I go to bed. It’s not easy.
I hope Annie is ok. I wonder if her iPad is playing up.
Hope everyone sleeps well x

RomRoot - so pleased to hear you sounding so much more hopeful- wonderful news. Hope you enjoyed the fish and chips it made my mouth water just thinking about it.
Nonnie- so sorry you are not sleeping so well at the moment. It is very difficult once those thoughts come flooding in and won’t go away. But I just love how you always seem to find a positive to everything. I am trying to do that too but it’s really hard sometimes.
Doodle- yes DGD is really a dear person .FaceTimed her yesterday and it was so good to see her and GGS too who joins in and makes us laugh. She,s doing well - it’s early days but they are a strong little family and will be ok.
Love to allx

Hello al how’s everyone doing today? ?

RomRoot Well done! That is a lot to achieve in one go, give yourself a pat on the back. Just a small caution, don't expect too much of yourself, be ready to take baby steps and accept that a few of them may go backwards.

Doodle yes, it has been tough but, instead of perpetuating the bad stuff, I have done the opposite. All parents make mistakes but I have done a better job than mine did and have always put the children's, and now GS's, interests first. That includes saying 'no' as well as 'yes'.

Sleep is getting worse again, my strategies to stop my mind racing are not working as well as they did. Don't know why the change but if it has changed for the worse, perhaps it can change for the better.

The internet has a mind of its own joce ?. Sleep well

Doodle don’t know how that’s happend it’s not what I was reading earlier.. will try again tomorrow...

Doodle not sure what I’m thinking to be honest...

Romroot so happy you sound more positive..

Hope everyone has a peaceful night sleep ?

We’re you thinking of the personal counselling Joce?

Romroot I’m pleased to hear you sound more positive. That’s such good news. I do hope it helps. The fish and chips sound good. As GSM says, please stay in touch and let us know how you get on. ?

Oh dear! I was going to say can’t tell you how happy I am for you. The fish and chips will be the best meal you and dh have had in ages. Savour every mouthful! I do hope you keep in touch with all your friends here to let us know how things are going. xxx

Oh RomRoot, that’s wonderful! What a change in you. I’m really, really pleased. That’s fantastic progress. I can’t tell you how ha

Hello all.

Well thanks to your support on here I called the crisis line and went in the next day.
They have signposted me for Trauma and disassociation. I've made 2 appointments for this week. One for diabetic bloods and a haircut.
Tomorrow is the dreaded Dentist call, I bet I'm not even on their list anymore.
I'm cooking fish and chips for me and dh atm, first time in months.
Thank you all, for helping me make the start. xxxxx

Just wondering if this would be of interest to any one hearin the BDG...
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joce glad the tape you have still helps you, anything that works to calm anxiety is a good thing.
GSM I am very lucky in that my asthma is very well controlled. I’ve had it since I was 23 …..last year ?
I probably don’t need my blue inhaler, can’t really remember the last time I used it but if I go out for the day and realise I don’t have it with me, I panic. I too keep one in the car.
Nonnie sadly things do come at us. Some live their lives and don’t worry about things till they happen. Others, like me, seem to spend all their time thinking what if, and worrying about things that in most cases don’t happen.
I am so sorry you have been through such awful experiences. Childhood should be a joyous occasion. You have done very well to have moved on as much as you can and I’m so pleased your family support you and care for you.
I watched my morning service online today too. The internet was awful for some reason and kept pausing.
Annie hope you are ok. Do you know when the new glasses are coming?

GSM your first paragraph could have been written by me! I haven't managed the box yet though. My experiences, I think, have been overshadowed by the sudden loss of my son. I think it has put everything else in the background. Now I am in the area of "keep hold of nurse for fear of finding something worse" I think that is the quote. I keep panicking about the next unforeseen disaster waiting to hit me. Logic simply doesn't work.

Scardycat no need to open up if you don't feel able. Maybe you will one day, maybe not. No rules on this thread, each must do what is right for them.

I understand your DGD, put on a brave face all the time while hurting inside.

Doodle I understand. I mentioned it in the thread because I thought the new person may not know about PMs and also I think some don't get an email to say there is a PM. I do so don't need to look. Its a difficult one but we don't have rules, just do what we can to help each other.

Yes, I really have had some awful things in my life, including more hospital stays that I could list! However, I am fortunate that in most ways I can put it behind me (not all!) and be grateful that in spite of all the hurt and pain I now have a pretty good life and the best family in the world. No, don't argue I do

Seems like quite a few of us are on here because of childhood issues. Unfortunately some also have had adult issues. I suppose we wouldn't be here if life had been easy.

I don't have an iPad!! I need a full keyboard, can't cope with the small ones. I even have a laptop stand so the keyboard is in the right position. Don't think I'm a luddite though but I might be.

Now to get ready for online morning service, the advantage being that I can drink coffee at the same time. Not sure we will be back in church until DH has had his second knee done.

Hello all.
Doodle I have asthma too, very bad when I was younger but the steroid inhaler I’ve had for a good few years now is a life changer. I would panic too if I didn’t have my blue inhaler to hand. One in the bedside cabinet, one downstairs, one in my bag, one in my gardening jacket, one in my dog walking jacket, one in my car, one in my husband’s - totally OTT but it gives peace of mind!