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SweetpeaSue That's all you need . I hope you're feeling better today.

How has everyone been?
Aqua aerobics was cancelled- the leisure centre was unable to get the screen thing to work (it wouldn't work properly last week and kept cutting out). That's what happens when people are replaced by technology. I had my hair done, bought more stuff we don't need essential items, wrapped lots of presents.

Doodle I'm so sorry to hear about your poor husband. You must both be very worried. I'm glad you have a reason for his balance though as it's bad he keeps falling. He can't go on in that way. I do hope you get some help soon so you both know what extent this PN is causing his issues. It must be a fine line between him being careful and keeping active. Sending you my love.
Scaredycat Oh dear your sister will have a lot on her plate. I know how much you worry about her.Hope you hear that your niece is OK. It is all awful for you all right now. You take care of yourself too.
Wyllow It's a great strain when we have to put a face on for family. Sounds like you've done this and it's probably a good thing that you have confided in your DIL. She's been very understanding and it's good she's in the picture. It's difficult to keep everything to yourself when you're going through so much.
HVDY Hope you're OK today and your GD is feeling better. Cold here too. I'm at Dentist this morning.
Annie So good to hear you are doing well and are in line for such a wonderful nursing home. About time you were looked after. Hope you have some lovely food today. Its so wonderful to know that you can enjoy your food again.

Sorry not been around for a few days. Have had some awful sickness bug and been in bed a couple of days. Worst is over..
Hope everyone has a decent day. X

Anniebach I hope you get the chance to have a chat with some of the nurses. Are you able to see out of a window at all?

It's cold but clear this morning. Aqua aerobics this morning, then getting my mop chopped this afternoon. Hope everyone manages to have a decent day.

Wyllow3 Well done on confiding in your DIL. We are so often Mum, Gran, Sister, etc., that our own feelings are 2nd to everyone else.

I took a leap in trust and confided in DiL, first time for maybe 4 months, who had been thinking I'd managed to emotionally leave Ex behind:

except keeping on OK terms with him just for divorce, not that I'd hoped for a benign transition: told her about the recent phone call that showed true colours etc.

Told her was struggling/grieving etc. She was kind. She also helped me with car, told me I had to reset tyre adjustment on computers.

It would seem its OK not to be supergran but at least a bit needy. But am careful to describe not outpour or dump feelings.

I hope you'll get your jazz back soon one way or another Annie some listening device and headphones?

Hi all x thank you for your kind words, it is difficult at present and will be for some time but it will pass . I am not being supportive sorry, the day is exhausting, wake at 6.30, wash , check ups, breakfast 8.30, I fall asleep at 9.30, partly boredom.

There are 3 ladies in the ward, they don’t speak bless them, I have my poetry which helps, gosh do I miss Alexa, no jazz to liven up the day.

My love to all, take care, keep plodding, and yes - keep walking x

ScaredyCat Yes, my son's GF got a scan picture - she sent it to me via What'sApp. They're excited. I did a quiche in the air fryer today. It turned out nice. The tree light switch-on sounds a nice community event. We had one about a mile away, where the local shops are. Nottingham city centre has got a huge market, ski slope thing, ice rink, big wheel, lots of bars and eateries, etc. Apparently, it was so busy yesterday, people were being turned away.

Doodle I've only known people with Diabetes to have Peripheral Neuropathy, but your husband's must be due to something else. I believe physiotherapy is sometimes suggested as a way of helping.

Anniebach I hope you had a delicious lunch and pudding today.

I hope all BDers have a relaxing evening. x

Doodle

Annie I am dancing round the room with joy. God bless you. That’s wonderful news. So, so pleased for you. I hope they accept you soon and you move somewhere where you can be well looked after. So pleased you are eating again. Much love xx

Such lovely news, so pleased for you. Doodle dancing round the room with joy is how I feel.
Doodle I am sorry to hear about Mr D, I hope things improve for you both.

Wyllow yes it is. My DH is one of those people who likes to know what the problem is so he can do some research. Having an answer to why he’s so unsteady on his feet helps.
Sorry you are going to have to have your tyres sorted before you go home. Something you don’t need. I’m sorry you are still feeling low and struggling even though you are with family. I know how that feels. I hope when you get home you can rest and rebuild. This is a difficult time of year for many.
HVDY funny enough, diabetes is about the only condition my DH doesn’t have. 🤣 not sure what causes it yet but I wonder if anything to do with his arteries and heart problems.
Glad you are going to make the point about your counselling. It may not help you but may aid the next one to come along. Oh dear I’d better get cracking with my cards too. Hope your DGD is on the mend soon.
Nadateturbe no need to apologise for putting forward a very helpful and sensible suggestion. His shoes are light weight because he has bad feet anyway and had major bone surgery on one foot some years ago. It is a good point though as the trend these days are for heavier footwear. Hope you are ok.
Scaredycat you are so right . I worry about my boys and DGC all the time. Thank you. DH is lucky, so far the PN doesn’t cause him any pain only balance issues and tired legs. He used to walk so much and climb lots of flights of stairs. Cant do that anymore.
You local tree switch on sounds a lovely event to go to with family. We have one in the centre of town but it’s more commercialised than yours with fairgrounds and things. Not so nice.
I’ve been putting up a few more decorations at home. I always feel sorry for the ones left in the box so have to find a home for them somewhere.
Annie hope you have had a good day and are warm and cosy. It’s very cold outside.
Thinking of all our missing posters and wishing you well x

HVDY- yes my sister has had so much to cope with in the last 4 years and is really the bravest little person. We never stop worrying about our children do we. Did your son have a scan picture ? He must have been so exited when he saw his baby for the first time. That air fryer seems to be able to cook any sort of dish - wish I had room for one.
I hope your GD feels better soon.
Whiff - that tree is precious . Thank you.

Joce- lovely to hear from you and thank you for your kindness.
Nadaturbe- thank you too
Doodle- oh dear another thing for your poor husband to cope with. I know someone with PN and it is very troublesome for him sometimes. I can understand that knowing what it is sort of puts your mind at rest in a weird way. Hope that they come up with some practical help.
Wyllow- what a shame you have hit a low spot while with your family. I expect all the noise and liveliness was a bit of a shock to your system. However it’s so good that you went and I,m sure your family are very pleased that you are there.
Wishing you a safe journey home and that the tyre can be fixed .
Annie - hope you had a tasty Sunday lunch xx
We,ve just been to our big switch on of the village Xmas tree on the green. Went with DD and SiL and GD and BF - it was freezing but so nice to see all the families out together plus lots of dogs wearing Xmas coats!! It’s such an emotional time and happy and sad whirl round in my mind at the same time.
Love to all BDG

Wyllow Sorry you're feeling like that. Those low/sad moments can occur even when the mood is happy. I hope you get your car sorted out Ok.

How has everyone's day been? I've written out all the Christmas cards, and DH found about 10 rolls of wrapping paper in the loft. I'll start wrapping things tomorrow.

bits, not bite!

Sometimes with very low feelings there is no "answer". One has to endure.

(I did expect this mixture, btw, especially as I have to sleep in playroom which is like a through room at times)

Wishing was at home today

*bad low despite family around - and have to hide it. Some nice bite here and there but having to do a good acting job

* going to have to call the AA out on the way home tomorrow as the tyre pressure is dangerously low and a visit to local garage this morning proved not just a pump up. Sigh.

Doodle apologies if I'm stating the obvious, but my husband found that buying the lightest weight footwear helps him to lift his feet more and not stumble.

Doodle Your poor husband has a lot to cope with. Is the Peripheral neuropathy caused by Diabetes? I hope the Geriatric team comes up with something to help.

Wyllow3. You may be right. I find I put up with more than I should, and let things go, whereas before my stroke etc., I was quite fiesty. It's ok, because when the sessions stop, I'll be asked to leave a review - and I'll mention things then. It'll be in type, for all to see .

Well, it's a damp but bright morning. GD1 won't be playing rugby today, she's still feeling quite unwell. I'll look on Amazon and send her something to cheer her up.

Hope all on BD manages to have a decent day x

Aw Doodle mixed blessings? But it is a relief to have "a reason'.

HVDY what an exciting time for your son with a new baby. Lovely to see him for a chat.
Whiff thank you for sharing a pic of your tree. I love it when the children get involved. I hope you were good for Santa.
Wyllow I’m glad you made the decision to visit family, I hope it’s doing you good. Enjoy your time with them and rest when you get home.
Joce nice to hear from you. Just keep plodding. Hope things improve soon.
Nice post from you nadateturb thank you. Thinking of you too.
DH and I have been to hospital today for another round of tests. He’s now had another condition added to his long list of ailments. Peripheral neuropathy. They say this is why his balance is bad and why he falls over because his nerves aren’t conveying the right messages to his legs. Having had the diagnosis we now have to wait to see what, if anything, the geriatric department come up with. DH is quite pleased to have a reason for his balance issues.
Hope all have a good weekend. Sweetpeasue and Ellie Anne hope you’re both ok.

Annie I hope that you get into the home of your choice soon and at last get the care you need and hopefully some nice companionship too. You sound as though you are really enjoying eating these days which is good. It will build up your strength.
HVDY glad you are feeling a bit better. Sounds like you had a successful shopping trip too.
Oh I’m sorry about your little GD. Mine son had croup as a baby too. Not nice. Hope she is better soon.
.Scsredycat I am so sorry to hear about your niece. What a worrying time for your family. Hopefully, being admitted to hospital they will do all the checks they need to and make sure she’s ok. Don’t forget there aren’t any moaning Minnie’s on BD. Only people telling what’s troubling them.

Anniebach so glad you are being looked after so well. Isn't it strange how things work out?
Thinking of you all. I don't have energy to answer each person. But I read your posts and sympathise.
And remember you in my prayers.

Evening all I’m hear in the background plodding on like I do...
Annie fantastic news I’m so so happy for you, God bless you you always think of everyone else thank you for thinking of me, sending you hugs and love..
Doodle thinking of you and your husband Hope things are better today for you both hugs and prayers x
Scaredycat sending you hugs and prayers thinking of you and all in the BDG...

Anniebach to think you were all alone but needing that level of care...was so relieved not only at care levels but you could chose where you have xx

((((hugs SweetPeaSue and others in need )))))

Its all a bit much, happy moments, fun moments, walk in sun moments...lonely moments, vvv low memory moments when alone...stretched to limits moments but definitely the right things to come, was "festering", expect will need 2 days "off" when get home Monday.

Do your best to take care of yourselves. HVDY that counsellor was not good enough imo, I feel that its cos you feel low in self worth you tolerate it. x

Hopefully this will make you smile my grandson's decorated my tree today. They both put decorations on. They are nearly 5 and 2. My daughter included me again in their trip to see Father Christmas then treated me to naughty cake and hot chocolate.

ScaredyCat Sorry to hear about your niece. She's in the right place to be treated, though, and I hope she's better soon. We worry about our children, no matter how grown-up they are. Your sister has had a lot to bear.

Had an unexpected visit from Son2. He came to collect a bicycle of his, from our shed. DH pumped up the tyres. Son stayed 3 hours. He saw his baby on the 1st scan yesterday, so it all seems more real for him now . Just doing a lasagne in the air fryer. Hope all on BD has a pleasant evening. x
Anniebach Hope you've had something tasty for your tea. x

Scaredycat your much loved sister, so many worries, you are NOT a moaning Minnie, you have fought through much grief,
health problems, I pray your niece will make a good recovery,
you are a 🌻 hugs x