Black Dog 20

SweetpeaSue Sorry, that 1st bit was to you x

Dear Sweetpeasue I am so sorry. I want to give you a big cuddle. I am sure the truth of the matter is the results aren’t back yet. I know from tests DH and I have had that sometimes they take longer than has been suggested. If extra tests were needed the. I would have thought that would be a reason to contact you and ask you to come in again.
Whatever the outcome of course you can post on here. Be it miserable or not. It’s why we are all here, the one place we can share, scream, shout at the unfairness of things and just let it out. I know you’re worried and I’m not going to say don’t be or try not to think about it. I’ve had a few days of worrying myself so know it can’t be turned off. But we are all here for you and with you and I’m praying that all will be well.x
Ellie Anne so glad you had a nice time and were able to talk to the lady from Bible class. Maybe you could meet again. Nice to chat.
HVDY sounds like you had a busy day. Glad your son had a good birthday. Must be nice for him having his own little family now.
nadateturbe hope your sister is doing well. Thank you for you good wishes.
Wyllow Scaredycat hope you’re both ok

Night night all and thinking of results and other tough situations xx

HVDY Thankyou, yes I know that was for me and you were trying to reassure me.
Doodle Thankyou too for those kind words when you are already coping with such a lot yourself. I think I'm so upset because the appt was already pre-booked for us to go there at 9-30 this morning for the results and I've been thinking the worst from the start as this lump thing on my tongue is so uncomfortable and still growing.
I hope you both don't have to stay too long away from home. Hospitals can be such cold places at times . I pray you will have kind nurses to speak too. God bless.x

HVDY Should have said I hope you get your own results soon . I'm just panicking I'm afraid.

Just now got call from nurse to say results are back! She wouldn't say anything over phone so have to go to hospital for half 11. Thankyou for all your lovely words and support.x

Hi all, I’ve not read or posted in a while as we’ve been away and have been so busy this week. Currently on the train to see my son and get my younger fur baby back (son looked after him whilst we were away and kept him a bit longer). I’m looking forward to seeing them). Not sure who I’ve missed the most 🤣. I’ve read posts from the last few days and I can see some of you are facing difficulties and I’m so sorry for that.
Sweetpeasue I can see how anxious and worried you are and I really hope everything goes well for you today. I’m thinking about you and sending hugs and ❤️.
Doodle you too. I can understand how difficult it is for you to be staying away from home as I’ve been there. But you will adapt and it will give your DH a boost just knowing you are there. I hope everything goes well for him today and will be thinking of you too.
HVDY hope your son enjoyed his special birthday and you all had a good time.
Ellie Anne nice that you made a connection with the lady from bible class. Hope it leads to future meet ups and a source of support for you.
Nadaterturbe sorry your energy is low. I hope you begin to feel better very soon.
I know I’ve missed others out but connection is poor so I’m going to send while I can love to everyone xx

It's benign. Thankyou so much for concern and prayers.
It should come out though as being bitten on and causing discomfort all the time. Said could take about 5 stitches. Yikes! Should get to hear in about 10 weeks for procedure.
Now just need to get DH sorted too.
Candy Lovely to hear from you. Many thanks for the hugs. Think it's going to take a while for me to calm down.

Oh Sweetpeasue such good news. I was praying for you on the way to the hairdressers. Big hug.x
Back later.

Nadateturbe Oh thankyou- I'm sure you were heard . Hope you're happy with you haircut. X

SweetpeaSue That's a relief. Glad you're ok.

Thanks HVDY x

HVDY I hope you're not too tired after yesterday. Such an early start. You are such a devoted mother. I don't think I could have done that. I'm glad your son's birthday celebration went well. The cake sounds interesting.
I too love looking at photos, I think I preferred the old way, it was fun going to collect your developed films.
I can't imagine you being not colouring your hair, you don't strike me as being ready for that. My hair is OK, thanks, feels better. it's quite thin, not much I can do with it, (a slightly longer thicker Judi Dench). I use Plantur shampoo which helps. My hairdresser has a garden studio and another lady was getting a colour. We all had quite a chat while my hair was being cut. We could have chatted for longer.
I hope you and your brother get results soon. The waiting times are unacceptable atm.
And I'm glad SiL is settling. It's nice your brother can have lunch with her.

nadateturbe Son's cake was an almond and jam one (like a Bakewell tart), covered in buttercream, decorated with pictures of Judge Judy (he loves that programme ), with candles spelling "Forty". DIL paid £65 for it (which I think is ridiculous but still). We're having Chubby Chops all NEXT weekend (not this one) whilst they go to Bath. I've bought a couple of Harmony hair colourants, blonde, so I'll try those next week. I'm not quite 65, don't want to be white (although I am now) Nice when you can chat a lot with a hairdresser. Mine is a lovely Italian man (69 with adult sons, like me). I'm not concerned about my brain scan results - it's benign and I haven't had any symptoms to suggest it's grown. Glad your energy levels seem better today.

Whiff- I do hope your brothers Op will be a success. He’s done very well to lose so much weight- that will stand him in good stead afterwards.
Doodle- Hope the surgery appt went well yesterday and today’s transitions to Hospital and Hotel and that by now you are both safely settled. He will feel glad you are so close.Will be thinking of you.xx
Nanny- that’s a lot of Critters. My Sister would love that. You will miss them especially Binks when they go but still 1 cat and 3 dogs is lovely company. This is the first time ever we have had no pets - considering a dog but that is not a decision to take lightly is it.
EllieAnne- glad you have met someone who it sounds may become a kind companion and you can be yourself with.
HVDY- Glad your Son enjoyed his Birthday . You had a busy day yesterday - yes it was freezing wasn’t it. Chubby Chops sounds like she is a very adaptable little person and just enjoys whatever you do together.
I,m sure your hair looks pretty - my Nan had very black hair when she was young and then it went pure white which was lovely.
Nadateturbe- hope you like your new hairdo today- what a nice place to go when you can chat too. Glad you had a good day yesterday and the pain is staying away.I do hope your sister has encouraging results when they eventually arrive. Has she been poorly a long time?
My Sister was extremely poorly for several years now but at the moment doing very well- sisters are special aren’t they.
SweetPeaSue- oh that is the BEST news . I do hope that now you can have some peace of mind for a while- no more Whatifferies! Your DH must be so relieved too- hope you are both able to get out in the sunshine this weekend. Sending a Happy hugx
Candy- good to see you back. Your little dog will be pleased to see you I bet. At least you have the weekend before work starts again. Perhaps you had time to think about your future while you were away and whether to continue work or not. Have a good weekend.
Wyllow - thinking about you and how you are getting on.

Tomorrow we are going to a Celebration of life for a friend who didn’t want a funeral. I,ve never been to one before - will be glad when we get back. I,m not very good with those sort of things. Too many memories.
Wishing everyone a peaceful nightx

HVDY You must be shattered after such a full day yesterday. You must have been up at the crack of dawn. Shame you don't like your new colour but at least you gave it a go. I don't think I'd want mine too light now (it too is all white now) . I remember the Harmony colours in long Toblerone like boxes. Used to use them in my 20s. I know they are different now-isnt everything. So glad you've had no bad affects to indicate changes from the tumour. You have been through such a lot.
Nadateturbe It must have been good to get out and have a chat at the hairdressers. Glad you're feeling a little better. I have thinning hair which I hate ,aswell as being completely white. I hope your sister is doing OK. You must have been so worried about her. I'm relieved about my tongue lump - and I'd pretty much convinced myself of the worst. It's strange-it hasn't quite sunk in properly yet. We were both pretty shaken and it's been an awful 2weeks. Need DH sorted now.
Scaredycat Thankyou for your hug. While in waiting room my son1 called and he and his wife and DGD are coming down tomorrow. Such a lovely surprise. I hope tomorrow isn't too much. I've not been to a Celebration of life instead of funeral either. I suppose everyone has their own ideas and ways of coping. I'm sorry you are having to go through that with all the painful memories. Thinking of you this weekend and hope you might be able to get out for a while. x
Doodle I hope you are both settling in a bit and there will be someone there at the hospital who you can talk to and understands your DH's condition . Thankyou for all of your understanding and I will be thinking of you both and praying things will be alright. You are not alone, though must feel it acutely. We are all wishing and praying for the best. Sending a warm hug.
EllieAnne Hope everything is well for you this weekend and you get some contact from your DD. I know that will mean so much for you.
Wyllow Sending love and x

Wishing all a very peaceful night and hoping worries will turn out to be OK. X


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Well my car is broken down can’t even get seen till Tuesday and even then they won’t have time to fix it so I don’t know what to do. Means I’m have to ask to borrow his every time I go out which is awkward. Been a horrible week.

Scaredycat I'm looking back through posts, I've missed so much.
Yes, choosing specs is difficult. My husband just gets the lens changed. I think varifocals are best but like HVDY I couldn't get used to them. It saves you having to change and not knowing where you've set the other pair down.
You had a lovely time with your GD. What a good idea, looking through photos and videos, a nice thing to do together. I must remember that, when my GSs come.
It must be so hard visiting and seeing your dear friend's mental health getting worse, and her husband too with Altzheimers. I'm sure she appreciates it. What an awful way for them to end up. Life can indeed be cruel. Thank goodness they have family.
I hope you get through tomorrow all right, and it doesn't tire you too much. I've not been to a celebration either, but it still brings back memories of happy times and can be painful.

I'm glad your sister is doing well now. There is indeed a special bond with sisters. My sister had treatment for lung cancer in May and it has almost disappeared. Consultant is very pleased and will do an MRI scan in a year.

EllieAnne I'm sorry you've had such an awful week. I hope this lady can become a good friend, someoneto share with.
Relationships with children can fluctuate. And sometimes we feel neglected and they just are coping with their lives, and don't have the same time as us, to keep in touch.
As for your husband it shouldn't be a problem borrowing his car. You're his wife. And the locked door. I know he didn't do it on purpose but he could have cared. I think you are extremely patient!
I hope you get your own car fixed soon. And I hope your weekend is OK. Will you get to church?
Sweetpeasue enjoy your day with family tomorrow.
Sorry can't manage any more. Hello Whiff Nanny2507 Allsorts (nice to hear from you, good getting out for walks) Candy and anyone else on BD.
Talk to you tomorrow, hopefully.
Love to everyone, hope you have a peaceful night.xx

ScaredyCat Hope the celebration of your friend's life goes well tomorrow. We had something similar for my dad, as there was no funeral (he donated his body to medical science). It gives closure and isn't so sad like a funeral. I think it's a nice way to remember someone.

SweetpeaSue Nice that your son and his family will be visiting you. Hope you have a nice catch-up. I expect (hope) you'll have a better night's sleep tonight, knowing that your biopsy results are ok.

Doodle Thinking of you and your husband. Hope you're both settled and will have a decent rest tonight.

EllieAnne Even though you're having to ask your husband for the use of his car, at least you'll be able to get out. Hopefully, the garage will be able to sort out your car.

nadateturbe Your sister is fortunate to have got rid of the cancer. Glad she's doing so well.

Hope ALL BDers have a good rest x

Night night, sending and hearing good wishes xxxxx

Another sleepless night.
That cake was expensive HVDY, but everything is nowadays. Sounds delicious. Baby for a whole weekend, tiring but lovely. You are such a close family.
I didn't realise you could colour your hair so soon after having it done. I remember using Harmony when I was young.
How good of your dear dad to donate his hody to science. And of course you would need a celebration to replace the funeral. Perhaps it won't be as bad as Scaredycat thinks.

nadateturbe You were up very early! Will you have a little sleep later on? I've had so many different things on my hair, it doesn't seem to affect it. 3 years ago, I went from dyed black to blonde in a weekend! I used 3 boxes of hair-stripping stuff then a box of blonde dye. DH and I signed up (15 years ago) for body donation, too. Hope you manage to have a rest and perhaps a snooze later.

EllieAnne Sorry you've had a bad week. Now on top of that your car breaks down. I hope your husband will be OK you using his but after all if he's not using it he shouldn't mind. My DH's car has been off the road for nearly 2weeks (waiting for garage to fix it) and we've coped as not had any appt clashes but I know you won't want to depend on him. I hope you can get it sorted soon. The smaller garages(we use same small one) seem so busy don't they. Hope you can see a friend or 2 at church tomorrow if you can go.
HVDY Hope you have a good weekend. You are so brave with hair colouring. I've tended to stick with same colour for yrs and DH does it for me. Yes, I'm looking forward to seeing son 1 and family again. They're not stopping this time as they will be visiting other mum, who lives close to them, tomorrow.
Nadateturbe I was awake a couple of hrs last night and I remember looking at the clock and it being 4-59 -- how strange. I hope you can get a bit of rest today as HVDY says. It's strange but I feel something isn't right as I don't feel as I should ,knowing the outcome of biopsy. Of course I'm relieved but still have a shadow over me. Maybe I need anti-depressants upping. DH needs sorting too. You are right about relationships with AC fluctuating at times(mentioned to EllieAnne). They have so much going on in their own lives.
Scaredycat Hope today is not too sad for you and you manage to get out over the weekend.
Doodle I hope you have settled in and your DH is comfortable with friendly staff in hospital. Even so you will be eager to get home. Thinking of you and hoping it all goes well.x

Morning. Still away but just want to say great news Sweetpeasue you must be very relieved. Will catch up properly soon. Xx

SweetpeaSue Your AD might well need increasing. Perhaps see how you feel over the next couple of weeks? I wake up at about 5-5.0 every morning without fail, even if I don't go to bed until midnight. No idea why, but when I wake, my mind won't settle down (racing with thoughts, songs, ideas) and I can't always get back to sleep. Hope you have a nice time with your son - mine about both meeting up (with their families) later, then all coming here tomorrow sometime.

A lazy day today, apart from a bit of vacuuming, here. Hope ALL BDers have a decent day x