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Doodle I'm so sorry that happened to you. I know how things that would have just been annoying when DH was around completely floored me after he had died. I was often in tears when something went wrong in those early years. I found having a rant with a friend helped.
My DH is still around in my head and I sometimes hear him telling me not to climb that ladder or it's not safe walking on the ice. He is still looking after me. You may think I'm mad or you may know that your DH isn't far away. Look after yourself after your awful day.
Scaredycat I hope this nasty bout of covid leaves soon. It does seem to take all your energy.
Wyllow I think you are a very brave lady and I hope today has not been too bad for you.
HVDY I can see you have your struggles too and hope you have had some bright spots in the day.
Sweetpeasue you must be very worried about your DH. I hope the medical staff can do something to help him.
I will be having an x-ray next week as the doctor thinks I have arthritis in both hips. Whatever it is it's painful!

Thoughts with all BDs who are not having the best of times.

Doodle- Ah so sorry that happened this morning. These sort of mistakes are getting too frequent. I,m not surprised that you felt as you did - it’s an awful feeling and I remember it well. I had to go to A &E a couple of days after what happened almost an unreal feeling.
Dear Doodle- you are still in so much pain and life seems so empty without your dear man- my heart breaks for you.
I hope the counselling will help you but if you find it’s not for you just excuse yourself .
Try and rest this evening ,have a glass of wine and try to eat something. Sending a big warm hug. So much wish I could help more.

ScaredyCat Glad you're getting a little bit better. Lots of rest and drinks will help. The new 'fridge is an under-counter one, and integrated. It's full of nice food now.

Doodle No wonder you felt so upset. You've seen such a lot of hospitals in the past year. Hugs . x

AGAA4 We all have struggles of some kind, don't we? Are you on painkillers for your hips? One of the GPs at my surgery reckoned I'd got Arthritis but it turns out to be a torn cartilage on 1 hip (the pain was terrible). Ibuprofen helps, and I'm doing exercises a Physiotherapist gave me. Hope you get on ok next week.

Doodle I hope the counselling will help you. Just talking to someone "neutral" might be what you need sometimes.

LittleGirl has just gone - it's been a long but lovely day. Got Gabapentin from the vet for Jaffa, but they can't see him until next Monday! Another vet 1 mile away is very expensive (and I didn't like them when I used to take 2 other cats there). Another one, 3 miles away, is booked up until 11th October! I must have, over 40 years, tried most of the vets in Nottingham (a good bedside manner is important). Hope ALL BDers have been ok today x

AGAA4- sorry I meant to say hope next week goes OK. It must be very painful to have pain both sides. Take care.
HVDY- that fridge sounds handy- full of goodies too!!
I,m glad you had a lovely day - LittleGirl will sleep soundly tonight- so will you hopefully. I didn’t know the vets are getting booked up too- you could write a Good Vets guide!! You,ll be relieved once Jaffa has been seen - then he’s officially yours.
Night allxx

ScaredyCat* I certainly could write "TripAdvisor" type of ratings on lots of vets (if a vet doesn't speak kindly to, or stroke my cat, I never go back). Jaffa is mine, no matter what. Hope you have a good rest. Keep warm.

DH has gone out with Son1 for a pint (just the one, he's driving), so I've got the place to myself this evening. Hope everyone has a cosy evening x

Doodle What a terrible day- no wonder you were so upset having to sit on your own in the same environment as when you were with your lovely husband. I hear your heartbreaking yearning in your post and I'm so very sorry. As Scaredycat says -there are just too many mistakes made these days.
Thinking of you and wish I could take away your pain. Hoping you feel a little better after a glass of wine. Sending a tender hug and much love. Hope you have a restful sleep and some calm in your heart tonight.xx
AGAA4 Pain in your hips with arthritis is so bad. My DH has had 2 hip replacements and so much better for having them. I remember the pain he suffered and all the waiting beforehand.
Pain can make you so low. Hope you have some painkillers that can help. You have such encouraging words for Doodle.
HVDY You have sort out a lot of vets there and you'll know the best ones. What long waiting lists some have , I never realised. I do know they're extremely expensive but you'll want one who is gentle and patient for your Jaffa- important he doesn't get put off by a first visit.Glad you've seen Littlegirl today - you'll need to put your feet up tonight.
Scaredycat

Scaredycat Hope you're getting rest and you and DH aren't in too much pain or discomfort. Your words to Doodle are so thoughtful and warm.
Wyllow Hope your day has seen some light.

So extremely tired. Had fluffball today and left her with DH while I drove to my first MH group . I was terrified. Can't say too much but not sure if it's for me. Although everyone seems nice I feel I don't fit in. Might give it another try next week.
Take care all and love to all those not mentioned too. I do think of you all.x

Read your days and ups and downs. I'll try to write more tomorrow. Today has been grim dressing gown and forcing myself to eat.

I am listening to suggestions and support btw! Carer tomorrow, it will make me get dressed and go out.

Doodle a hug for especially difficult day and xx to all
Night night all.

Morning all, I’ve caught up again. When I spent some time in my son’s last week, I told myself that I was going to try and lead a more relaxed lifestyle but here I am, back to busy busy busy. I do think of you all, I really do but when I finally have some time to relax, I’m exhausted and then I find if I stimulate myself too much in the evenings by being online, then I can’t sleep which is counterproductive. Yesterday I did an early gym session, took DGS to school, walked the dog then spent the rest of the time cleaning the house. I sat down late afternoon and slept for about 3 hours! Feeling a bit hungover today (although I havent had any alcohol) think I must be detoxing!

Doodle I’m sorry you had such a bad day. The hospital obviously triggered you and all the hassle you had wouldn’t have helped either. Hopefully you have processed it now and will start to feel a bit better. I get triggered too at hospitals as they remind me of all the awful times I spent there with my DS. I hope you are doing something nice today.

AGAA4 hello and welcome. It’s nice to have you here and I hope you get the support you need. It’s a friendly place. I’m sorry for your loss and as they say, there is no timescale for grief. It’ll be good for you to have an outlet when you need it.

HVDY another busy day for you with LittleGirl but absolutely worth it I’m sure. I used to have my DGS for full days (before he started school) and I’m not sure if I could manage them now as I get so tired. Although I lead a busy life, I think most of my tiredness comes from the meds. I’m not going to stop them though because I don’t want to go back there. I understand what you mean about vets and it is important to have that empathy. When we moved here about 8 years ago, I moved our dogs to a vets in the same village, purely for convenience. I didn’t have a good experience with them though so I moved back to our old one. I didn’t realise they are getting so busy too. I hope you have a nice day today.

Sweetpeasue I’m sorry your visit to the MH group didn’t go so well. Sometimes, you get a feel for these places and if it’s not there, then it’s not there. I’m sure now you’ve been, you will be in a good position to decide whether to move forward with it or not. I’ve been to a few and one I particularly disliked so I chose not to continue. Sometimes you just know. Sounds like you enjoy having fluffball and I’m sure that will do you good too. As you know, I love my dog and they do give you a purpose to get out. They’re a big responsibility but for me, it’s worth it.

Wyllow like others have said, there is more “you” now on this thread so you are getting there. You have been through such a lot and you’re processing it all so it’s going to take time. It must be very difficult for you and I hope your care worker helps you through it all. We are here too of course.

Scaredycat I hope you are feeling better now. Covid isn’t going away is it? You write such lovely posts to everyone and are obviously very caring. Take care and get well soon.

Ellie Anne thinking of you and hope you are back soon.

I’ve taken DGS to school, pick up later, some housework (again!), 2 gym classes and some shopping in between.

Thinking of everyone else too and hope all have the best day possible xx

Afternoon all.
SweetPeaSue- I can imagine you feeling full of trepidation going to the MH group. At least your first impression was that they were nice people . Your lack of confidence in groups holds you back a bit doesn’t it. You,ve done the hard thing though and next week will be easier- who knows you may make nice friends there. But as Candy says if it’s not for you you don’t have to go back after that.
How are you both today?
Wyllow- hope today with your new carer has meant you getting to know her better and that you feel comfortable with her. As you say a reason to get yourself sorted and out today.
Sorry yesterday was a difficult one but today is another day and you may make a small step towards better times.
I hope all your family are well and that you feel better now the lines of communication have opened up a little.
Candy- good to see you.
Your days are certainly getting busy so you are wise to rest when you get the chance. Today sounds like another one but I think you enjoy being busy as long as you can relax in between.
We,re fed up with all this enforced rest though- all we,re doing at the moment is sitting about feeling pants- youre right Covid hasn’t gone away . Dont think it ever will.
Enjoy your time with DGS - I loved when we used to meet some of our GC from school and hear all about their day.
Doodle - hope today has been a bit easier than yesterday. You must have been so tired when you got home.

Love to all

SweetpeaSue Going to a new place is always daunting, particularly if the group is established. Perhaps you could give it another try? If it's not for you, don't go again. How long was the meeting? I keep looking for something different to join, but there's nothing that's more than a couple of hours.

Wyllow3 I hope today has been a bit easier for you.

Candy6 You're always so busy . You put me to shame. Hope you manage to find time to relax this evening.

ScaredyCatand Doodle Hope today has been better for you.

EllieAnne How are you?

It's been a boring day - washing, cleaning and making 2 cottage pies, nothing else. LittleGirl tomorrow . Jaffa behaves as though he's lived here for ages. Stays in all night, uses a tray, and is now sleek and glossy . Hope ALL BDers have a relaxing evening x

Wyllow Hope today has gone well with your carer and you are getting to know each other well. Yesterday sounded so grim but glad you managed to eat something in the end. You need to try and keep nourished of nothing else. Lots of love.
Scaredycat Must be so miserable for you stuck in germy house but rest is all you can do I'm afraid. Hope you turn a corner tomorrow and feel much better.
The group wasn't at all intimidating only 5 of us though all seemed older. A steps to recovery with 8 sessions ran by a trainee psychologist. Not sure what I'm going to do really.
Candy You're so very busy it's no wonder you get tired. If ghats the way you like it though you're probably happier than having more time. Did I read 2 gym sessions in a day! You must be so fit . You'll be ready for another rest at your caravan soon.
HVDY 2 of the group I'd met last time the course was ran . I'd gone to first one before but with DH bring so bad I didn't go to more and others couldn't attend that one. I am thinking I'm a lot better mentally now than others.
Glad Jaffa has settled so much -- he knew a good home when he saw one. Have fun with Littlegirl tomorrow. DH had Cottage pie tonight.
Doodle Hoping today was a great improvement on yesterday. Love and a hug.

Went to book group today. It got me out though I couldn't enjoy it really. Half hr before I left DH he had message on his phone from NHS to say an appt has been made for new Vascular surgeon--in January! 4mths away. Can only hope the Rheumatologist in November can suggest something but don't think he can really.
Called by aunt's DGD- to see if she'd called me- aunt hadn't. She was missing , no one knew where she was for 3 hrs. Thank goodness she turned up- though not before quite frightening few hrs.
Blood tests tomorrow.

Hoping everyone is OK. *Nadateturbe *EllieAnne Thinking of you. Xx

Just read your post Doodle . As you know my husband died in 2004 aged 47.The moment he died half of me died to. My house wasn't a home anymore it was just a house . My husband was my home my everything.

I did things going out looking after my parents and mother in law who I hated for 40 years.

I have lost track even now the times I have shouted out loud this shouldn't be my life . But we have a life something that ours husband's haven't got anymore . It's still early days for you it will take years to suddenly find you are coping.

I always thought I would die first and was prepared for that. As being born disabled and the pain I am in everyday and the rest . But my husband love me for me .

We owe it to our husbands to live and live the best life we can . It's so hard making a present and future without them but it's what they would want.

Doodle my dear you still have a life to live and people who love you dearly and will be heartbroken when you die . But not for years yet.

Loving and being loved is so precious not just the love from a husband but children and grandchildren. Plus friends that love us.

Doodle and everyone here are helping people get through another day just by posting . It doesn't matter if you are having a good day or bad you are all here supporting eachother plus countless who read but feel they can't open up about how they feel.

Wyllow you are a strong woman what you post on other threads is so insightful and helps others . I know you can say how you really feel here but writing it down does you more good than leaving in your head.

I have been there and done that after my husband died and I hurt myself mentally and my physical health suffered.

Can't write to everyone tonight as I am very tired been up since 5 and out at 7.15am .
But couldn't read without writing ..

*AGA I talk to DH every day. Most of the day in fact. It’s the only comfort I get.
Sorry to hear you might have arthritis. Hopefully after the X-ray they might be able to offer some treatment.
Scaredycat thank you. I slept ok last night and have had a busy day today. Art class tomorrow.
Sorry to hear you’re still feeling rough with the covid. Hope you feel better soon. Do you do jigsaws or painting to keep you occupied?
HVDY it’s lovely to hear how Jaffa is settled and is looking so much better. He obviously landed on his feet coming in your door. I bet you love the days looking after your little one. Tiring but so lovely.
Sweetpeasue very rarely do people ‘fit in’ on the first week. I was set to give up my art class after a few visits, how glad I am that I didn’t or I would have missed out on some lovely friendships. I know the MH group isn’t the same but please keep giving it a try. I did one years ago and although I didn’t think it helped at the time, looking back on it it gave me ideas to help myself.
So glad your aunt was found ok. Had she just wandered off?
That’s not good an appointment in January. Apart from going privately I’m not sure what’s to be done other than wait but it’s really troubling for you.
Wyllow keep hanging in there and I hope and pray things will improve for you. Hope the carer is nice and today went well.
Candy nice to hear from you. Don’t worry if you can’t post much your days are busy. Have a lovely time with your DGS.
Your day sounds pretty exhausting to me no wonder you’re tired. Are you off to the caravan this weekend?
Whiff yes I’m plodding on but it is hard as you know.
This little group is a good support group for all and I’m glad you’re part of it. You help so many others with your insight.
Hope you have a good sleep tonight.

Doodle Hope you have some fun in your art class tomorrow. I'm so pleased that you say you talk to your loved husband every day. You know your loved one is there.It must be so very hard for you to keep going with your life. Can only imagine.
I don't think I'll give up on MH group. I understand what you mean.
My aunt had been picked up by a distant relative who hadn't thought to 'check in' with aunt's nearest.
Regarding the v late Vascular appt, we were floored. We think if Hand surgeon (1st November) rules out failed carpal tunnel , we will be more prepared to seek private Vascular consultant help.
Night Doodle. Hope you sleep tonight.x

I think it must suit you to keep busy, Candy, and your body told you to have a sleep. Those are busy days!

Scaredycat I hope you will feel better soon with Covid - I can imagine how frustrated you feel. Pants, like you say.

HVDY on of those useful but tedious days. You really have made a difference to Jaffa’s life - I can remember how much coaxing it took.

Sweetpeasue it sounds like you haven’t decided yet about the group, maybe one more try? I’m glad you made the effort to get to book group, well done you.

But 4 months to see another Vascular surgeon for DH! Hoping with you the Rheumatologist is helpful. Glad aunt turned up and hope your blood tests go well. Ys - if you cant get a diagnosis, I hope you find and a good private appointment.

Wise words as ever, Whiff. It’s been a long day for you, hope you sleep longer.

Doodle that is so poignant that you talk to DH (hug). It’s good you get to art class, even if it’s distracting for a bit. Thank you for prayers.

Today went with carer to the Botanical Gardens, after a muddled distressing night as forgot to take my meds till 3am I walked a bit too far and back complaining now.

She’s trying to get me to do more things but I’m very stuck , resistant, and often very exhausted, I think koko with my mood takes it out of me. Cant ever relax really. But glad I come in here last thing.

Best night possible, all. Thinking of BD’s not in today.

Afternoon all.
SweetPeaSue- Well done for going to Book Club especially as you had the worry about DH appointment in the back of your mind. I,m glad that you feel your mental state has improved more than perhaps you had thought. January is a ridiculous time to have to wait - so stressful for you both.
Oh dear your Aunt gave you all a fright- I expect she was completely oblivious to all the excitement!
Hope the blood tests are all ok.
Whiff- kind and loving words for Doodle that will resonate with many I,m sure. So much you write is very true and helpful too.
HVDY- How about U3A? Although the actual meetings are only once a month there are so many interest groups you could be doing something almost every day.
I expect you’re busy today - a certain LittleGirl will have you on your toes! Does she like Jaffa? It’s so nice how he has become so much at home with you- you have a very welcoming home I think.
Doodle- hope you had an enjoyable class today- do you have a tea and cake break?
I think it’s good for you to ‘chat’ with DH during your day.
You were so close I,m sure you talk about all sorts - decisions,ideas feelings .
I,ll be pleased to get out again - my legs are all wobbly from all this resting. The initial energy on waking depletes very quickly . Always doing something though,reading,writing,playing games,planning photo books, etc DH likes the tele and games.
I hope the x ray went off ok yesterday I,m sorry I forgot to ask.
Wyllow- your carer sounds like she’s got some ideas to help you. What a shame you had a bit of a meds mix up.
Never mind you still went out and did something different.
She might be able to help you relax - can you get to the countryside easily?
I think it’s so hard for you to allow yourself to enjoy anything- it will happen . You deserve to feel the sun on you and the breeze through your hair. - we all care so much for you.
Love to all, those not mentioned and those just reading.

HVDY I'm sure today hasn't been the least boring with Littlegirl coming. The weather is awful so I'm guessing the park was out! Indoor playcentres are so good aren't they - we never had anything like that for our own children. Hope you had a good day whatever you did together.
Wyllow It's not surprising you feel a little resistant to the carer's ideas and suggestions. I know I'd be the same as any change can be scary anyway , let alone contending with a MH illness. Perhaps if you can't go 'all the way' with something you might compromise in some way? I hope the more you see her the more you can trust. Hope your back isn't too bad today. Good to see your posts as always ,you must have been very tired after your day.
Whiff Caring and encouraging words as always.
Scaredycat You sound eager to get out and about and it's annoying that your legs are feeling little wobbly - I'm sure that will change as you get better. I don't think I'd know what symptoms to expect now with covid. Is it still sore throat, cough and a bit like flu? You are so upbeat even when feeling pants. Photo books sound nice idea- I've so many they need sorting.
Doodle Hope your art class was good and you enjoyed it , plus the company. Rain has been so heavy here and I'm guessing heavy where you are too so hope you managed the roads -starting to flood around here.
EllieAnneNadateturbe Thinking of you.

Not done a lot today. Texted so who got back late Tuesday . He's OK but the worry is about his wife's mum diagnosed with very serious illness- just had op so has to get biopsies back.
Been trying to put tog a knitted snowman choc orange cover. Need to knit another elf's head. It turned out too oblong. Found putting on snowman's facial features very challenging. Amazing how much the expression matters.

Wishing all a peaceful night and love to all not mentioned and those reading. X

Been a good day at art today although my contribution was pretty awful. Then went knitting with church friends.
So tired tonight. Tears earlier as there are every day but I’ve calmed down a bit now.
Sweetpeasue had torrential rain here today and lots of flooding. Glad you’re getting on with your knitting. Must be a worry for your son with his MIL and you and his Dad not being 100% . Good idea about waiting for the hand surgeon before deciding what to do.
Wyllow I couldn’t exist without talking to DH. I have to feel there is some connection or I’d go mad. The longing to be with him is an emotion I’ve never experienced before. No words can describe it .
Please try and get out as much as you can. It’s the only way you’ll get better. I know it’s hard but at least you’ve got a carer who is trying to help.
Scaredycat yes art was good and we do have coffee and cake. 😊. X-ray went ok but no results till mid October.
It’s good you keep yourself busy. I’m trying to do more walking as I’m completely out of practice.
HVdY have you had a good day with the Little Girl? I bet you’re tired tonight.

Doodle Sounds like you enjoyed the art , bet your contribution wasn't really as bad as you say. Honestly Doodle, I'd be completely lost without DH - he's my reason for being- and you are having to cope with your whole life with your other half being taken away. If I imagine that it's bad enough. I'm not in the same boat though I might be one day. We are here for you to tell it how it is- just as you've always been here for us. Hope your calmness lasts for you to sleep. Don't think rain is going away in a hurry.

Evening all
Sweetpeasue your DH’s appointment must have been such a knock back for you both, honestly it’s seems to be one thing after another for you. You did well in getting out to book club and not just cave. I hope you can get the help you need from the appointment in November. It must have been a worry re. your aunt and I’m glad all was well in the end. Must be a worry for your DILs family too. I hope her mum will be ok. Good luck with the knitting!
Scaredycat hope you are feeling better and can get out and about soon. At least you have things to keep you occupied which must help. Im not so good with hobbies but then i dont really have the time for any. I started a book some time back and I’ve been so slow with it. I like it but I find reading makes me tired so I’m reluctant to pick it up. Hope your day has has been ok.
Doodle glad you’ve had a productive day. I’m sure your knitting was fine. Hope you’re still calm and have a good rest tonight. Take care.
Wyllow hope you manage to build a strong relationship with the carer and you feel able to trust her. You have started on the road to recovery that’s the main thing. It may be slow, but your are strong and resilient so you will get there. Hope you have a restful night.
HVDY I expect you are tired tonight after having LittleGirl but I expect you’ve enjoyed every minute. Hope you have a good rest tonight.

Not done anything very exciting today. The weather has been awful but I’m resting up now with a glass of wine 😋. ❤️ to everyone not personally mentioned and hope you all have the best night possible. Night night xx

I hope your wobbly legs get a chance as soon as possible, Scaredycat. I’ve never had covid, but us older ones dont seem to bounce back like the kids did. When family had it, parents were out of it for 3-5 days, but the kids bounced back. Glad you’ve got distractions.

I sort of can’t bear the countryside atm, too much Ex stuff there, bike rides, I need to be with someone. Worker came today, brief walk, she tries to push me to do more things as she said it’s good for me but so difficult to get out of slough of despond, constant inner battle. You are hopefully right Sweetpeasue when I get to trust worker and believe she actually cares…

I’m not surprised you didnt do a lot today Sweetpeasue….I’m sorry that your son has those concerns. I do like your descriptions of struggling with your knitted figures to get the face right.

You did well to get out Doodle and as for the art..it’s the trying that matters. But coming home alone after - yes, hits very hard so understand the tears then. Sigh yes about me “doing” but the mountain to climb just everyday…well, you know.

Candy thank you for good wishes. Really glad to read of you resting up in your busy life.

HVDY hoping it was a good day with LittleGirl.

Thinking of absent BD’s all.

SweetpeaSue January?! I don't know what you can do about that, but perhaps there will be a cancellation. I'm glad you went to your book club. What book have you been reading/did you discuss? That's quite worrying about your aunt. Does she carry I.D on her at all?

ScaredyCat Glad you're keeping busy. Ye's your legs will be weak but if you only walk about from room to room every couple of hours, it will help. I hope your son's MIL gets on okay.

Wyllow3 Good that you went out yesterday. If you can walk a bit every other day. it'll do you good. Remember AnnieBach saying that?

Doodle It doesn't matter if your art isn't great, you're taking part and that's the main thing. If it helps to talk to your DH, carry on.

Whiff Wise words to Doodle.

Candy6 Glad you relaxed a bit yesterday. A glass of wine is good.

I haven't been well - Wednesday night, I was shivering/sweating all night, then yesterday terrible diarrhoea 16 times! (sorry, TMI), despite having no food and only water all day. DH took LittleGirl to a new play centre and she loved it. I really shouldn't have gone. Went to bed at 7pm last night!! Unheard of. I'll clean up today and disinfect all the door handles and light switches. Hope ALL BDers manage to have a decent day x

Afternoon all.
We,ve just done tests and are still positive😩😩DH is feeling better but I still feel so tired and like I have a cold- guess AF doesn’t help.
SweetPeaSue - yes I want to get out but my body doesn’t! Our symptoms were cough first then achey,tired bit sweaty, bit like flu but nowhere near as bad as that.
So sorry your Sons MiL is so poorly- his wife must be very distressed.
It’s funny how little knitted people’s faces are so important. A stitch out of place can make a grin a grimace!! I bet they are really cute.
Hope you’re ok today.
Doodle- glad you enjoyed Art yesterday. I,m sure your work wasn’t awful. One Life Class I went to one of the people wasn’t very good but I loved his work as it was very real and full of energy. Glad you have coffee and cake - that was always the bit everyone enjoyed the most🍰🍰
This weather isn’t nice for walking is it but I really think a daily walk is as good as anything to lift your spirits and help keep you fit.
You always write so beautifully when you talk about your DH- he is always with you and always will be.
Candy- you have your lovely dogs so you can always go out with them if you get bored. As for reading I think those of us who have or have had MH problems find that the concentration needed to read a book,much as we love it, is very tiring. Like you I enjoy it but it’s hard work.
Weather is vile isn’t it- a rest and a glass of wine sound just the job.
Wyllow- you’re right about oldies not bouncing back so well- I think my bouncing days have bounced off!! DH being younger still can bounce a bit.
Yes trust has to build up between you and your new worker but she sounds like she has a bit of get up and go which is a good thing.
It’s so sad you can’t enjoy the places you love- there are new places out there when you are ready. So wish there was something I could say that would help more. Life can be good again Wyllow.
HVDY- oh I,m sorry you haven’t been well- that sounds really nasty.Dont do too much today as you,ll be really weak after no food and all those tummy upsets. I hope you feel better soon.
Nadateturbe- thinking of you and hope your day is being kind to you.
Love to all not mentioned x