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ScaredCat You always write such lovely things to us all. You're a good friend to us all. My husband is getting on great with the CPAP machine. I don't hear any snoring now.

Doodle The spirometry test will be done at the GP surgery. there are 18 people in front of me, so the Nurse said, and she reckons it'll be the end of April before I am seen. All those places you went to with your dear husband must have bittersweet memories for you.

Nanny2507 Don't do anything rash. If you move, it will make it easier to see all your family, though.

SweetpeaSue I really hope I haven't got COPD (I can't see why I would) but there are various different types of inhalers to use for it. I might try to see a GP, I'll see how I feel tomorrow, but I've been bad today. Hope all goes ok tomorrow when you meet that lady. You never know, you might find you share some common interests.

Candy6 Glad you had a nice holiday. I don't like being away, either, so have never been anywhere for more than a week.

Off to bed soon, with Greedy Guts Jaffa . He's 1.5lbs more than he was in December. Love to ALL x

Yes, you do get a lot of “bugs”, HVDY. I wasn’t surprised to hear you have immune problems. Jaffa is certainly thriving!

Sending a big hug back to you nadateturbe, better days fervently wished for alongside you. And do think of you remember days when you were able to say a bit more but it doesnt matter.

I hope it goes OK tomorrow with new lady, Sweetpeasue. Both of you will be nervous. As regards the book group, I think you’re right not to give it up, but at the same time only go if it’s possible. I am concerned about your pain levels, can you take something for them? Would low dose amitrypteline (specific) help?

*Scardeycat you are a lovely friend for people here. I hope your day has been OK too. Doodle is spot on about you.

Shopping day is Monday Doodle. I remember you planting the tree with your family. There are so many triggers, aren’t there? Sending love for coping.

nanny2507 well done you for making your decision. It must be hard to make those choices x

Candy great to hear about your time in the sun. I perfectly understand how long you want to be away from home for, I used to find over a week very difficult. Not silly at all.

MY MH worker realises at the moment that there are no ideal next steps until I desire to move on not be stuck. I feel more supported atm being accepted as I am.
Tum has been Ok today and did go for a walk with carer, it was cold and grey but It’s better than home alone. She can distract me a bit. She is a special person down to earth and has had a tough time but come through.

Wyllow3 One of the GPs recognised my symptoms of Vasculitis (rash on feet, lower legs and hands, at the time (less than 2 years ago) and told me to stop taking the BP tablets (Lercanidipine). She said that had started it. I had an emergency appointment the next day to see a Rheumatologist. It went from there. I'm glad your carer is so understanding and in tune with your needs, and pleased you got out for some fresh air.

Day centre today. I don't feel like going as I was awake for hours, coughing, but I'm forcing myself to go. It's nice when I'm there. Hope ALL BDers manage to have a better day x

Good Morning. Today is a sad sad day for me, I’m going to collect my DH’s ashes, in a state, feel like I did when getting ready for his funeral. It would have been his 73rd birthday next Saturday so we are scattering half of them at our favourite beach and the other half in our churchyard. Also have some kept by for jewellery for the ‘girls’. I suppose I feel that this is the final goodbye. My heart aches.

Sorry to be so down. How is everyone. I’ve not posted for a couple of days so a bit behind with your comings and goings,
But please believe me I think of you all and send Hugs to each and everyone of you.

Sending love strength and prayers . Sorry I’ve not named everyone but you’re in my thoughts. ❤️🫂🙏

Hi all

Thanks all for such kind remarks - I think we’re lucky to have each other and this safe place.
Doodle- it’s lovely you have your tree for your DH. A living thing that will grow and give pleasure to many people over the years and as it grows you will start to regain your strength too.
This morningI walked on our Woodland Trust where there are many such trees . I,ve told my family I would like a tree there - they say”don’t talk about it Mum!!!”
Hope you had a nice morning at Church yesterday and that today at Bereavement Group you were able to gain comfort from your companions.
Nanny 2507- that sounds like a plan. Not one to be taken lightly but something that hopefully will bring many benefits for you.
Being near to DD will enable you to see her more often and in turn get to yourDS easier.
I think you’re very brave and deserve the best wherever you go.
SweetPeaSue- Hope yesterday went well with your new friend.
If it didn’t then it wasn’t meant to be.
Your pain sounds horrible- you’re not moaning how else can we know how you feel?
Candy6- glad you had a good holiday but it is always nice to come home isn’t it.
Lovely long post to everyone - at least it didn’t disappear into the black hole of lost posts !!
I hope that both you and DGS managed to get a peaceful night in the end.
HVDY- so glad your DH is still snore free and hope it has enabled you to sleep more peacefully too. So sorry you are being kept awake by that nasty cough. I hope you don’t have COPD - I had an Art friend with it and it sounded terrible.
Like Jaffas new name - one of my DD rescue cats is like that. Mind you he looks much better than when he came here from Qatar.
Enjoy the day centre - hope they make something you like.
Wyllow- Your care worker sounds very perceptive and as someone who has had her own difficulties will be empathetic too . It’s so nice to hear the affection in your words - she is just what you need. .
Yes you have to have the will to move on. Even a cold damp walk can raise your spirits as you are discovering. Glad too your tum is behaving itself .
I do believe things are very gradually looking up for you- tiny steps but steps nevertheless.
NamnyG4- Ah what a sad day indeed .it feels like a final goodbye but every time you visit your beach it will be full of memories of the good times you had there and your DH is now part of that lovely place.
Jewellry is a lovely idea - that way your DH will always be with your girls.
A kindly hug for your heartachexxx

Wishing all BDs mentioned or not a gentle end to your day.

NannyG4 A sad time for you, and with your husband's birthday due soon, too. Ashes in pendants? That would be nice for your girls. You'll have memories (happy ones) of your husband when you when you visit the beach in better weather.

ScaredyCat Thanks. I'll be going to bed early tonight, I think. I think the nurse at the doctor's is over-zealous, but we'll see. Greedy Guts only has to hear the rustle of a sweet wrapper or some packaging, and he assumes it's some Dreamies for him. He'd scoff the whole packet in one go if he could. How was your day? It's pouring down here.

Day centre was good - various quizzes, then chilli and rice followed by hot cherries and ice cream (I gave mine to someone). Hope everyone has been ok x

Candy Glad you've had a nice time away at the caravan.I imagine your dog must get quite excited when you arrive as he'll know there are some beach walks ahead. Hope you got to sleep OK when everything settled.
Wyllow Your walk with the carer seems to help so much. It sounds like you've such a good understanding with her and it's good that she's not going to push you into things you don't feel ready to do. Thanks, I take Amitriptyline on a night for sleep and nerve pain and it does help. I saw the lady from MH group today and found it quite hard work actually. I think she liked talking to me though so I feel glad if I've helped. I think her vast medications are making it difficult to talk as her memory seems so bad and she's extremely nervous.
Scaredycat It was today I met that lady.When I left my phone no with her that day I'd no idea how bad she was. I'm trying to help but it's hard when my energy is low. I was worrying about DH all the time I was out.Hope I don't sound selfish. I'm hoping to hear soon that your neice will have a date for her op. It's terrible she's left like that.
NannyG4 Oh what an emotional day it' is for you - it must have been so hard but I hope in future it helps to walk on your favourite beach knowing your DHs ashes are there. The jewellery is a lovely idea for your DDs. I'm so sorry for your heartbreak. It all must have felt so final. Sending you love too and so kind of you to hold us in your thoughts .
Doodle Hope today your bereavement group went OK and you had some helpful connection between friends. It must feel better to talk to others who have been through the same although of course , circumstances can be different.
HVDY I'd forgotten you'd been diagnosed with vasculitus. GCA , that my DH has is a type of Vasculitus. Although he's never had Asthma his breathlessness wasn't helped by any inhaler and I don't think he has COPD either. He's just got a date for the Spirometry test today a couple of weeks time, since been on the list from November. I wonder if my DH has inflammation caused by the GCA in other vessels nr the heart as he's chest tightness too. Your cough must really get you down. You wouldn't think it would take so long for these tests.
Oh that must have been hard giving away hot cherries and ice-cream. You are doing so well. What a lucky person that is to sit next to you.
Nadateturbe Thinking of you and hoping you're ok.

Spent 1 and half hrs with lady. She had MH problems from being very young. I went to leave after an hr but she went for another coffee so I stayed a bit longer.
DH seems so tired and I'm beginning to be afraid of leaving him. His headache not gone and I just don't know what to do for the best anymore. Just more waiting. Bit worried about the Spirometry test as if it was to do with heart it can be a bit drastic. Something is causing the breathlessness yet he hardly coughs at all.

Sending everyone best wishes for a peaceful night. Thinking of everyone and those not personally mentioned.

Nanny that sounds like a good plan. It would be good to be closer to your DD and if that brings you closer to your son as well that’s a big plus. What about your job?
Sweetpeasue have you spoken to the GP about your pain. I wonder what it could be. I certainly think you should be checked out.
Candy thank you. I’m already on antidepressants. Have been since two weeks before Dh died. I have had a better day today thank you. Glad you had a nice break..good you had some sunshine. That always makes us feel better.

HVDY glad you managed to get to the day centre. Another nice meal. Jaffa sounds very comfortable and settled at home now. He likes his creature comforts.
They say that over time memories will stop being hurtful and will be something that makes me smile. I hope that’s true.
Wyllow your carer sounds a nice lady. Is this the one you pay for? I hope when the weather gets a bit warmer you will feel more like going out.
Nanny only carry through your plans for your husbands ashes if you are happy that’s what you want to do. Sounds nice locations for scattering the ashes though. Who is coming to be with you?
Scaredycat people don’t like talking about funerals but if there is somethings you’d like I’d write them down, DH had the opportunity to talk to us about what he wanted. Music, photographs etc. He and I had already discussed about his ashes so I know I’m doing what we both agreed we wanted. It does help. DH’s brother wanted to go and see him in the funeral parlour but I found a sheet of notes from Dh where he said he didn’t want anyone seeing him he wanted to be left in peace. I told his brother and he agreed not to go. It was helpful for me to have some guidance on his wishes.
Bereavement group was lovely. It’s only once a month but those of us who go always look forward to it.
Sweetpeasue you were kind to help that lady from your group but you must be careful of yourself too. You are under a lot of stress and must take care of you and your Dh first. I’m sure she benefited from just having you to talk to though.
The asthma/COPD nurses at surgeries are usually highly trained. Whatever it is about the spirometry test which troubles you see if you can talk to her. Could you try phoning the surgery and asking if you could make a telephone consultation with the asthma nurse to discuss your current concerns about your husbands breathing. If he’s been on the list since November maybe they don’t realise he’s gotten a lot worse.
Had a better day today. The church bereavement group is more about sitting and chatting about life in general then saying prayers and lighting candles. We don’t usually discuss our loss in detail. It’s not a counselling group but we get comfort from knowing we all understand.

Doodle The Bereavement group sounds really good in that you don't need to discuss your personal situations and that it's kept to just honouring you own DHs.
Sorry but not sure I understand about the Asthma nurses. It was our GP who put DH forward for the Spirometry test
He's never had Asthma , but if its possible for me to intervene , then I would.
The prayers and lighting candles sound so comforting and helpful.

I’m glad that the day centre was nice after al, HVDY, well done for getting out after initially not being sure.

A very sad day, NannyG4. Of course you were in a very down and heart-aching state, really understandable. Lovely jewellery idea.

Aw, Scaredycat, you families reaction to your tree idea x.

It sounds like the lady is actually in quite a lot of difficulties Sweetpeasue - you mustnt take on too much as you have home and family concerns - its not selfish.
Hoping DH's test in a fortnight helps.

I’m glad today was a little bit better, Doodle. I was very moved to hear what you’d discussed with DH. So glad the bereaved group is there for you, that quiet sharing.

Yes, its the carer I pay for Doodle.
No walk today, despite last nights reolution, it was also very heavy rain. Mood the pits, whats the point. The CH boiler is playing up I will have to get the plumber but dont want to even get dressed often. Day at a time.

Night night BD's. May they be as peacful as possible.

SweetpeaSue On the website "Versus Arthritis"...The most common blood vessels to be affected by GCA are in the head and neck. However, GCA can sometimes be linked with inflammation of other blood vessels, including the main artery from the heart (aorta) and those supplying the head, neck and arms. Hope that doesn't scare you too much, but it might be the cause of your husband's symptoms. Hope your husband's appointment in March gives some results that will help. You provided a kind listening ear to that lady. Be wary of getting sucked in with her problems, though. You've got your own.

Doodle I'm glad the bereavement group was good. How many people go? It must help to know that you all understand.

Wyllow3 It rained here a lot yesterday. Not the weather to go walking about in. I hope you manage to get someone to look at the central heating. You need to keep warm.

Meant to be seeing Son1 and his girls today. (he's been off work the past couple of days). I asked him to think about where we can go. I suggested a few things, but as usual, he hasn't come up with anything (unlike Son2, he never makes plans, just drifts along). Hope ALL BDers manage to have a decent day x

Hi all
Such a shame your MH lady seems to be in quite a vulnerable state. You were kind to stay with her but you have a lot to deal with at the moment so be careful of getting too involved.
I hope the Spirometry gives you both some answers. It might help you if you do what Doodle suggests and contact the respiratory nurse at your surgery who would help allay your fears.
Doodle- one day ,I promise, you will be able to remember and smile. You have so many good memories of your lovely man . What a kind thoughtful man he was. I am going to try and emulate his funeral planning. I,ve always been very scared of facing it before but he has given me the courage to do it.
It’s heartening that your Bereavement Group is more about hope than sadness and must give you all much comfort. Lovely to light candles afterwards - they have always helped me - a light in the darkness.
Wyllow- walking in heavy rain is only enjoyable if you’re little and can jump in the puddles!!
So sorry you’re feeling what’s the point but as you say - one day at a time.
Give the plumber a call though as you need to keep warm.
Perhaps getting out your clothes the night before might help.
Then you’re ready for the day and it could be the one that has a point!!
HVDY- that was a huge sacrifice- hot cherries and Icecream. Lucky lady next to you. Cherries are my favourite fruit.
I can’t believe how much Cats love Dreamies- they just hoover them up don’t they. We couldn’t give them to our last cat as he was on a special diet. My DD greedy cat likes Lickylyx(spelling might be wrong)
Hope you found something nice to do with Son1 and the girls .
NannyG4 - hope today has been kinder to you.

Thinking of you all - those mentioned and our absent friends.

HVDY It's OK, thankyou - it's what I have been thinking .It makes no sense that Vascular says there's nothing they can do and they've discharged him. When GP sent us for second opinion we got same consultant who told us there had been an addendum put on his notes saying his scan had been reviewed and they didn't believe there was a Subclavian Steal. The consultant put on letter to GP that she leaves him u her the hand surgeon's care , but day before the hand surgeon had seen him and told us there was Vascular Insufficiency in his left arm and nothing to do with carpal tunnel so he's not under him at all. It's such a convoluted mess up.
I hope it's not COPD for you too. Everything takes forever. You use get so fed up with it all.
Haha I've got a son that could be described the same way--' just drifts along'. Drives me mad at times but they don't worry too much either which is good.
Scaredycat Lovely posts to us all . I understand what you all mean about this new lady. My head feels like bursting at times. Thankyou for caring. I understand what Doodle means now - that it must be the Asthma nurse that does the Spirometry tests. I'm going to see if I can talk to her on Monday.

Will get back later. Have DGS at present.
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ScaredyCat Jaffa sometimes has a powder stuff from the vet, to help with his drooling and snotty nose (he's ok at the moment), and I give it him on a dessert spoon, mixed with Lick-e-Lix. He scoffs it down. He's got a tin of tuna at the moment.

SweetpeaSue Honestly, why on earth can't these medical people agree on things? It makes it difficult to know who to believe and trust. Have a nice time with your grandson. Is he there for his tea?

Didn't see Son1 and girls. Doing that tomorrow instead. I suggested a steam train journey (Derbyshire) - and booked and paid for it! DH and I went to B&M, a large one with 2 floors. Got some paint (to use when the plaster is fully dry), then had lunch at a nice country pub. Hope everyone has been ok x

Doodle I don't think I took your post in properly last night( 2 large glasses of wine) Didn't realise that it was Asthma nurses that did the COPD tests. I'm definitely going to find out if I can talk to one at the surgery next week. I understand the tests can be quite taxing for someone who is a bit breathless on exertion. I know I'll feel better if I can talk to someone and tell them of my DHs problems ( they mightnt always be on the notes). You asked about my pain- I spoke to GP about it a couple of mths ago and he referred me to Rheumatologist- he believes it's Fibromyalgia. Think my appt is June.
So glad your bereavement group is providing the understanding from friends who've been through the same.
Hope you've had some nice company today too. I really appreciate your knowledge and help - there's not a lot that you didn't encounter throughout your DHs many medical issues.
You don't mention how the pacemaker is so I hope you are used to it now and you've no problems.
My mother knew her cancer was terminal so she had the time to plan the service ,hymns ect. She left myself and 2 sisters letters to open after she died. It's not always possible for people to do that is it. Big hug for you.
Wyllow Everything is such an effort when you feel so tired and everything feels pointless. The CH boiler must feel like the last straw. I'm sorry your mood was so very low yesterday. Blooming weather! It's so windy here today our garden gate has been broken. Better weather soon and then your walks can start up again. We care Wyllow.

So tired . Yes had DGS for tea HVDY. He loves M&S cottage pies so I had one in but since I'd not had him for a while I gave him the option of a McDonald's as a treat - big mistake- he chose McDonald's. We showed him how to do magic tricks from a box. He then curled up on the sofa with his new phone- sigh.
He's growing up too fast.
DH has headache still plus he's had jaw pain so he may need to up the steroids drastically. If still there Monday going to ring Rheumatology dpt - for advice.

Hope everyone's day has been OK. Love to those struggling and those not mentioned.
Whiff Hope you are doing OK after that hospital visit. X

Sweetpeasue as I said, Asthma nurses usually are COPD nurses too and they and their colleagues who are diabetic nurses are usually well trained. I just thought it might allay some of your worries if you could talk to one about your husbands test before he has it.
I did learn a lot about hospitals and how they work through Dh and his vast medical history but I also worked at a Doctors surgery for many years.
The points you have written down here are quite clear to me. I think you should write what you’ve said about the vascular surgeon the hand surgeon and the mixup down in clear bullet points. Make an appointment with your DHs GP and ask them what exactly is going on. You shouldn’t have a second opinion with the same consultant you saw in the first place. I would be going mad trying to get to the bottom of this. Another suggestion is perhaps you ask for an appointment with the Practice Manager and explain the problems to them and say you would like a clear written plan for your husbands diagnosis and treatment. I know neither of you like making a fuss but the reality is if you need to.
The pacemaker is fine I think. I seem to be keeping going ok. They check it remotely by some gadget that looks like an alien spacecraft and airs in my bedroom flashing a green light that goes off when I turn the bedroom light off.
Wyllow if your carer is the one you pay for and one that helps you, could you pay for more time with her during the week? No not a nice day for a walk I don’t blame you for staying in.
Hope you’re not cold and you get the boiler fixed soon.
HVDY there are about 20 people who attend the bereavement service one for a parent two for their child and the rest for husbands or wives. It is a beautiful service and we all love it.
Did you see your son and girls? What did you do in the end.?
Scaredycat DH didn’t go into great detail about his funeral plan but enough for us to get the music right. The song he was adamant he wanted in the middle of the service was one the rest of us would never have thought of. It meant a lot to me that he asked for it. It was Cliff Richard “When the girl in your arms” . It was so helpful for us to discuss his ashes because I know what I’m doing is what we both wanted.
It would be nice to think this loss eases over time. Today is a day when I’ve gone through the motions. Smile on my face, out with friend, had lunch, shopped etc but all the time this nagging nostalgia of the times I was there with Dh. The fact he liked their chocolate cake so much. The time we took ages to buy our granddaughters necklace. It just plays over and over in my mind even though I’m carrying on a conversation with someone else.
I am very lucky with all our church activities. The people are all so lovely.

Oh Doodle I remember the song well - so hold me close and never let me go....
I can only imagine what it must feel like. I can't think of any sort of pain that could be so cruel and gut wrenching.
You are the whole point of this thread. You keep it going in order to help others, even when you must be so very worn out. I'm so grateful for your help and others must be too.
So many things must remind you of your lovely DH. That's a mixture of emotions I think. Just so much appreciation of what you do for us all. Hope you sleep well.x

Sweetpeasue DH wanted the song for me. “When the girl in your arms is the girl in your heart then you’ve got everything”.
And “Day or night let her know you love her so… “
We played it with pictures of us together from when we first met. I think he wanted everyone to know how much he loved me which he did and I loved him with all my heart too.
Sleep well all. I’m off to bed my eyes keep shutting. 😊😴

What a moving ending to the day, Doodle. I've caught up with your days everyone, I love the honesty but don't feel I can say much today. Did get dressed, but grey rain and got through day.

See you tomorrow, may nights be as good as possible.

It is indeed a moving end of the day Wyllow.
Much love to Doodle
Wyllow you got dressed , so not dressing gown day - that's good. Wish you a better day tomorrow, and the next tomorrow's. Koko my friend. X

Hi all

HVDY- Hope you,ve enjoyed the Steam Train trip- you should have lovely scenery in Derbyshire. Steam trains are so evocative of being little and going to the seaside. That lovely smell and the sounds of letting off the steam.
A 2 storey B and M sounds brilliant. It’s pretty impossible to go in one of their shops and come out empty handed. We,ve been to an outlet centre this morning after our walk. It was dry so we sat outside for our coffee.
SweetPeaSue- I hope you get to speak to someone about the
Spirometry test- I think you are someone who can deal well once you have information but not that uncertainty and mixed messages you have been experiencing.
Your pain and other symptoms certainly sound very much like Fibromyalgia- the amount of stress you,ve had for such a long time will not be good for that either.
Your GS choice of a Maccy D made me smile- bet he was pleased!! Oh dear - the phones. How they love them.But I must admit I,m a bit addicted too sometimes. How old is your DGS?
Doodle- really helpful pos5 for SPS. Your knowledge is very comprehensive and you are so kind to take such interest in us all when your own life has been turned upside down.
Your pacemaker sounds very Hi tech- so glad you are getting on well with it. My niece has a pacemaker/ defibrillator - Isn’t it marvellous there are these things to help us.
You certainly describe those mixed emotions so well and very touchingly. I think I remember when you bought the necklace. Those memories are lovely ones though and they will live in your heart forever. You had the most amazing marriage and warm our hearts with your love.
Wyllow- well done with getting dressed even though you didn’t get out. Those grey miserable days seem to have been around for so long- just wish they would do one . You must long to see the Sun ,not necessarily the heat , but just the Sunshine that makes everything come alive.
Is there any chance you could have your nice care worker a bit more often- she seems to be so good for you.
How is your little Grandaughter - it’s a while since she had her operation ?
Hope today is a better one xx

I,m hoping as it’s quiet here today that you are all having as good a day as you can. If not tomorrow is another dayxxxx

Doodle The memories you have of doing things and going places with your husband must cause mixed feelings, but it's good that you had such happy times together. You obviously loved each other deeply. Your bereavement group sounds a great source of comfort. It must be terrible to lose a child.

SweetpeaSue Kids always choose McDonald's if they get the chance - Son1 has never taken his girls, we've taken them twice. Their other granny and their mum take them sometimes. How old is your GS now? Our GDs love their mobiles but Son1 has restricted their access to some things on there. I hope your husband's headache goes, but he might need to be on more steroids - what dose does he take?

Wylow3 You got dressed yesterday, so that's something. It's been sunny and mild today, nice to see a blue sky for a change.

ScaredyCat The steam train was really nice, thanks. A first for GDs 1 and 2. There were various miniature railways and also large trains and engines to look at. Quite a bit of walking to do, but it made a lovely change and we were out all day. Did you buy anything today? It's been good to see a bit of sunshine today.

Hope ALL BDers have a restful night x

Scaredycat I have to admit using my phone a bit too much aswell. Yes I need to know what's going on medically much more than I ever did before my own experience. I can't ever trust in the same way I did. My DGS is 9 . His McDonald's was Chicken nuggets.
Doodle Your special song has been playing in my head much of the day. I remember the words . So beautiful and true. I feel so sad for you but glad you have had so many lovely years with someone so special . Thankyou for all of your help- I mean that.
HVDY Hope you've enjoyed the steam train trip- certainly better weather for it.
Wyllow Such nice words from Scaredycat there. I do feel for you and your liss too. To lose someone you love is much like a bereavement and I can see how very bereft you are and with so much confusion in the mix too. Sending you a gentle hug. Hoping today has been better.

Didn't take aunt out today. DH had blood test arranged in a surgery in another village. He could get appt there quicker than our own surgery. He's still got a headache today.
Changed bed and got everything washed and dried. Son 2 is home from work and invited us for dinner tomorrow which is so lovely . I've said we'd love to though I'd let him know in time. I feel exhausted today but he's been so understanding.

Hoping everyone has had a reasonable day and are coping with their worries. Wishing each one of you a better day tomorrow if today has been hard.
Peaceful night to all.x

Wyllow Sorry , meant loss