As a remainer, I have had to accept that democracy will lead to my country (Scotland) and the industries/careers of my family being much worse off after Brexit, however it will be achieved.
With the shennanigans of Trump and Saudi Arabia, both of whom are high on Britain's trade wish list, I have watched in growing horror as the arrogance of our negotiating position seeks to remove us from a friendly alliance of 27 countries close enough to buy fresh produce and open enough to allow our young people a huge freedom of movement.
My American and Canadian friends tell me travel to Britain causes huge problems when they have to go through lengthy non-EU entry ports. That will be our fate, soon, when we go to rEurope.
For two years I have been horrified at the amount of disdain and insulting language aimed at me for wanting the best for my children and my country.
I am a remoaner, apparently, for seeing the truth and watching this terrible car crash unfold.
Soft fruit rots in our fields and we can't get carers for old people.
Our small local school just lost another teaching post because of the number of young and hard working parents who have been sent packing back to Europe. With our aging population, Scotland needed those neighbours.
I watched events yesterday with something approaching despair.
We are trying to put the blame on the EU when, in fact, it is we who have been belligerent; we who have gone at this like a petulant, rich child and we who didn't think through the consequences for industry, food supply, peace in NI, and impoverishment of rural areas which have benefitted considerably from EU funding.
What happened yesterday is part of a plan to so disgust all sides that we will accept "just getting on with it", even if that means crashing out.
The lack of effective opposition nationally and the constant berating of the Scottish Government for standing up for its citizens is almost criminal and adds to the dismay of we who are being subjected to a cruelty and isolation for which future generations will pay dearly and will not forgive. Nor should they.
It is self harm and you can't blame the EU for protecting its institution and putting the 27 compliant, secure members ahead of this moaning wee minnie of a confused country which spent 3 hours putting the knife into the only firm proposal anyone has come up with, flawed though it might be.
That TM's 500 pages didn't mention Scotland once doesn't surprise me at all. Just as we could see how bad leaving the EU would be for Scotland, we can now see how really awful it is/will be under Westminster absolute power.
And the EU is not to blame.